Jenny5309
Prayer Warrior
I had sex outside of marriage. I burned with lust and gave into it instead of waiting and it became my god/my addiction. The baby daddy left and I've been on fire spiritually (in a bad way) ever since. I was the tempter and have lost count of the victims (one stands). It's a living hell you can't run from. A mix of pot, alcohol, no food (anorexic), to sex, excessive exercise. I tried to be a perfect barbie doll. It's always been that way. I had a seizure (go figure). You have to crucify the flesh but I was not willing. I was savage. The cornerstone had become a capstone. The way of the world. Girl meets boy (surely ye shall not die) and the rest is history. From worshipping the creator to the created in every heart that I have ever grown up with, 1970s, if it feels good do it, etc. (no good, only death. Raging bulls (idolatry) that consume you. Instead of abstinence, eating each other's flesh literally. Like vampires. It's ways been that way. Objectification and consumerism of each other. Soylent green is what we have become without boundaries. Instead of seeing someone as a soul, they become dinner for our insatiable lusts. It happened to me, to everyone I know. That is the root of the problem, objectification and no checked lusts (except in court) and with diseases. Shack ups, divorce, greed, abuse, unwanted children, (my bio father wanted me aborted), and it carried into my generation. My family and everyone I know. What is the use? Life built on lies and lusts. No good. Abuse of power, aids, breast and cancer, suicides, drugs, beatings, murders, rebellion, addicts, everywhere, poverty, right in our homes. Freight train nightmare you can't get off.
