Dear friend,
Do not kill yourself. It will not solve your problems but increase them.
Flee to Christ. He saves anyone who comes to Him. He is truly all you need. Only He can give sense to your life. Nothing in this world whether it is a wife, job, money can give you true satisfaction. It is only what Christ has done on the Cross and the Righteousness He worked out for you is what can give you true happiness and joy. Go to Him my friend. He is truly a friend at all times and He sticks closer as a brother.
Pro_17:17 A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.