I can relate. It seems like everything that I touch dies. Friendships, relationships, finances. I've seen so many times that justice never triumphs. The wicked seemed favored. They plot and plan evil. Righteousness seems to count for nothing.
I was looking over all the miracles Jesus did. Every chance that he got he would fully heal and restore a person. Looking at Jesus he is like no one you have ever met. He wouldn't ever cheat you the slightest.
If you understand anything understand this...Jesus is always good. ALWAYS. He is like having a best friend except he always comes through for you. Being good he always hears your prayers. And you might have even planned out your life where you have said I just want this in my life. God says that's your plan. My plan is much greater than what you even can imagine. Isaiah 55:9 says, "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts."
Let God renew hope in your life.