Nepaomai
Disciple of Prayer
I'm in fear for my life and my loved ones' lives. It's hard to really explain this, but I'll try my hardest to.. I've been in some kind of spiritual oppression for almost a year. I hear a voice in my mind, telling me I've hardened my heart and can not be restored to repentance! It's also telling me I'm going to die and go to hell. Also that my children's lives are in danger. I was saved at a young age, but I have lived in sin for so many years. I can't hear from God no matter how many people pray for me. I pray non-stop and still nothing.. I don't know if I'm under demonic attack, or if God is punishing me. I felt a physical force controlling me, and making me attempt suicide! Several times. I am in a cycle of sin I can't break out of. I'm being physically LITERALLY controlled, pulled out of bed every morning, and all day long. I pray for God to help me, but all I get is my past being brought up to me. All the pain I've caused my family. And now I'm being punished for it, and no chance to come back to God. That I'm one of the people in Hebrews 6:6, that has a hard heart and can't be forgiven. Please. I need to hear from God. I don't know what to do. --