Khootor
Disciple of Prayer
I came to Christ when I was around ###. I felt him calling to me ever since I've tried to live a clean life rejecting the world and its standard, but it hasn't been easy. Much of my life has been filled with abuse, neglect, rejection, mistreatment, and so much disappointment. I've never blamed God. Instead of listing out everything in my past, I'll just stay with recent events which have compounded everything from my past. About ### years ago my nephew passed even though my family and I were all praying and hoping for good to save him. Last year I tore my bicep and I had workers comp until January when they decided not to pay me. So I've been without pay since then and I can't return to work until they release me. This past November my brother, whom I was very close to, passed away in the hospital. We all had been praying for him for over a year to recover. He actually did and was released from the hospital. He fell and hit his head and had to go back in and died 6 months later. He was only ###. I had to drive ### hours to the funeral and then my dad died about a month and a half later so I had to turn around and go back ### hours all while not being paid. I have no more hopes and dreams because everything has fallen flat. With the passing of my family members, it just stacked on more than I can emotionally bear. I'm very tired now. I am using the last bit of strength to ask people to pray that God will remember me and remember me. I want my life to turn around. I've been told by many people in like Job, but Job's suffering came to an end. I'm asking God for something very specific and The word says, “Again I say unto you, that if two of you shall agree on earth concerning anything that they shall ask, it shall be done for them by My Father who is in Heaven." So please don't preach to me; I know the word very well. The word also says, "The spirit of a man will sustain his infirmity; but a wounded spirit who can bear?" And like one who takes away a garment on a cold day, or like vinegar on a wound, is one who sings songs to a heavy heart." Just pray with me and believe that God will give me this desire of my heart.