"idk" (Venting And Hoping For God's Help)

[Michael]

I haven't left a request here in a long time but I feel that I need God's help. Last night it was raining and I went outside and tried talking to God. Sometimes when I talk to God during a rain or storm it just feels like He is there. Anyways I just vented as I will to you all here and hope, as I hoped last night, that I am not simply talking to the wind as I grow tired of silence always being the response I'm given.

I am very unhappy with my life. I don't even feel like I am alive anymore. Yeah, of course there are people out there with worse situations. People who don't have many of the things I do, but that knowledge doesn't console me. I think when we all have problems they become so important because they are OUR problems. Like I was saying, My life just feels empty. Last year my girlfriend of 3 years left me out of the blue, I lost my job, started having some health problems, etc. I was just like my whole life fell apart and I struggled to find a reason for it all. That reason has never come and I still struggle to pull together my life again.

Just going through some of the list in my head...

1. I got another job since last year but it is working part-time at Home Depot on the overnight freight team. It's hot, dirty, and difficult job. The working nights part of it has really just increased my unhappiness as I have essentially become a vampire. All I do is go to work, come home and sleep all day. I injured my elbow at work as well and it has not gotten completely better since February because I can never rest it. On top of all that the job only pays $8.50 an hour. I can hardly live on that. Every attempt to find another job or get switched to the day crew has failed and I don't know what to do.

2. Loneliness. Since my ex left I have felt like a part of me is gone. I tried to get her back at first but she wouldn't have anything to do with me. I then tried to just be a friend and she broke all ties with me. Fine, that's her choice. Now she's pregnant by the guy she's been seeing so you can imagine how it might feel to have love for someone who abandoned you and got knocked up by someone else. I guess there is a part of me that wants her back but at the same time there is a part of me that doesn't. I will always love her but abandoning me the way she did was horrible. The thing is I can't see any future relationships in my life. I have little to no friends and don't spend any time with anyone outside of work. I'm 35, no kids, no wife, no girlfriend, with a lousy job. The future doesn't look good for me and I am lonely.

3. My house. I got this house about 4 or 5 years ago. At the time I enjoyed making it to what it is with my then girlfriend. She didn't live with me but her influence was there. Making this house a home used to be a great new adventure as it is my first house but now I just can't stand it at times. It is like a tomb to me. All the good times and memories I have had here are now bittersweet and are like bad memories now. I don't enjoy being here. If I try to sell it I will have to go live with my parents in the meantime and though I am welcome there, it will just feel like I am taking yet another step in the wrong direction.

I just feel unhappy with my life. I feel stuck. It's like there is this piece of me that is just gone and no matter what I do it never comes back. I asked God to help me, but deep down nothing seems to change. Sometimes I wonder if I am just talking to the wind as God never seems to answer. All my life I have had a relationship with God but now, when it feels like I need him the most it feels like He has abandoned me too.

I look back at some of my posts and they all seem so sad and negative and I realize that is how I must always come across as I only seem to post when I am in a crisis. I wish that wasn't the case as I am not always this way. Especially in person. As for this post...I don't know what I am asking you all for. Understanding? Prayers? I don't know. I realize this post is kind of all over the place but I just know I felt the need to express my feelings about all this because I feel like it's killing me slowly but surely and I need God's help.

 

[Brucknerr]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[dcrandjr]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[The Encourager]

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[Glory to God]

I prayed for this in Jesus Christ Precious Name. Amen

 

[tina1]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hadassah]

I haven't left a request here in a long time but I feel that I need God's help. Last night it was raining and I went outside and tried talking to God. Sometimes when I talk to God during a rain or storm it just feels like He is there. Anyways I just vented as I will to you all here and hope, as I hoped last night, that I am not simply talking to the wind as I grow tired of silence always being the response I'm given.

I am very unhappy with my life. I don't even feel like I am alive anymore. Yeah, of course there are people out there with worse situations. People who don't have many of the things I do, but that knowledge doesn't console me. I think when we all have problems they become so important because they are OUR problems. Like I was saying, My life just feels empty. Last year my girlfriend of 3 years left me out of the blue, I lost my job, started having some health problems, etc. I was just like my whole life fell apart and I struggled to find a reason for it all. That reason has never come and I still struggle to pull together my life again.

Just going through some of the list in my head...

1. I got another job since last year but it is working part-time at ### on the overnight freight team. It's hot, dirty, and difficult job. The working nights part of it has really just increased my unhappiness as I have essentially become a vampire. All I do is go to work, come home and sleep all day. I injured my elbow at work as well and it has not gotten completely better since February because I can never rest it. On top of all that the job only pays $###.### an hour. I can hardly live on that. Every attempt to find another job or get switched to the day crew has failed and I don't know what to do.

2. Loneliness. Since my ex left I have felt like a part of me is gone. I tried to get her back at first but she wouldn't have anything to do with me. I then tried to just be a friend and she broke all ties with me. Fine, that's her choice. Now she's pregnant by the guy she's been seeing so you can imagine how it might feel to have love for someone who abandoned you and got knocked up by someone else. I guess there is a part of me that wants her back but at the same time there is a part of me that doesn't. I will always love her but abandoning me the way she did was horrible. The thing is I can't see any future relationships in my life. I have little to no friends and don't spend any time with anyone outside of work. I'm ###, no kids, no wife, no girlfriend, with a lousy job. The future doesn't look good for me and I am lonely.

3. My house. I got this house about ### or ### years ago. At the time I enjoyed making it to what it is with my then girlfriend. She didn't live with me but her influence was there. Making this house a home used to be a great new adventure as it is my first house but now I just can't stand it at times. It is like a tomb to me. All the good times and memories I have had here are now bittersweet and are like bad memories now. I don't enjoy being here. If I try to sell it I will have to go live with my parents in the meantime and though I am welcome there, it will just feel like I am taking yet another step in the wrong direction.

I just feel unhappy with my life. I feel stuck. It's like there is this piece of me that is just gone and no matter what I do it never comes back. I asked God to help me, but deep down nothing seems to change. Sometimes I wonder if I am just talking to the wind as God never seems to answer. All my life I have had a relationship with God but now, when it feels like I need him the most it feels like He has abandoned me too.

I look back at some of my posts and they all seem so sad and negative and I realize that is how I must always come across as I only seem to post when I am in a crisis. I wish that wasn't the case as I am not always this way. Especially in person. As for this post...I don't know what I am asking you all for. Understanding? Prayers? I don't know. I realize this post is kind of all over the place but I just know I felt the need to express my feelings about all this because I feel like it's killing me slowly but surely and I need God's help.

The one thing I noticed about your post is that you speak death to yourself and your circumstances, and as a child of God, there is a life force in you that is waiting for you to turn aside from yourself and embrace the fullness of life that Jesus has said is yours.

I was reading in Exodus this morning and I noticed that Moses saw the burning bush that was not being consumed. He had a decision to make. To investigate or move on, but he turned aside to see and that is when God spoke to him, and God said, take your shoes off because you are standing on holy ground.

Just as Moses had to take off his sandals, we are to put off the old man and embrace the new man in Christ. Do you understand what it means to be born again? Just asking, because a lot of Christians have no clue because the church does not teach us that we have been made righteous in Christ Jesus. There is a freshness, a newness, a new beginning for each person who is willing to let go of the past (old things have passed away, behold all things have become NEW) and to move in the abundance of Life Jesus died to give us, as overcomers, triumphant and victorious. To grow up into all things in Christ and be that son to God.

It means loving God with all our heart, mind, soul and strength and loving others as we love ourselves. It is allowing His love to shape and mold us as we allow Holy Spirit to teach us how to be overcomers and that comes by reading and meditating on the word and asking Holy Spirit to teach us.

When one loves God, they want to do what God wants them to do. I used to watch a lot of tv, Holy Spirit said to me no more tv...so I quit, immediately. It's being obedient to the things of God because I love Him and know when I follow His path for my life, then I am the overcomer, I am the triumphant one and I am the victorious one. It's not about me, but Christ in me, the hope of glory.

It's lining my thoughts up with God's word, it's telling the devil to GO! I don't receive anything of yours anymore. It is letting go of people and praying that God bless them and bring them into a place of repentance and receiving salvation. It's praying for your ex girlfriend that she surrender her life to Jesus and be saved and live for Him. It's forgiving those who have hurt you and releasing them from those chains of unforgiveness. When we place judgments on people, we put them in bondage and we also are placed in bondage from those same judgments, this is why we are told to be careful of what we say, and what we think.

Heb_11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.

In the name of Jesus, I break depression off of you and command the spirit of fear to GO! I bind you to the will of God for your life and the abundance of life that comes from that relationship of knowing God, for in that knowledge of knowing him as Father, grace and peace is multiplied to you through the knowledge of God and of our Lord Jesus. In Jesus name. Amen.

 

[Praise the LORD]

I am praying with you and for you, that our Father reveals Himself and your purpose according to His will, to break His silence. As prophets from days of old, together let us speak life into being, in our dry bones, speak according to His written Living word, let us look forward, for God says He knows the plans He has for us, that is a future, He is saying take my hand, move forward, no looking back, what was is no more, because I the Lord have more for you, LIFE. You are Blessed and Highly favored.

 

[Saraha]

God bless you as I will pray for you in Jesus name and loving heart. May He watch over you and help you with the prayers you are asking for. Praise God. Jesus love all of us. Amen

 

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