I'd accepted Jesus years ago. I was involved in church and was always trying to help the needy, doing what I believed God wanted of me. I was never more content, feeling close to God. Years later my father died. For some unknown reason I was never able to recover. I became despondent, extremely depressed, and anxious. I really don't know what happened to me. I still believed, but my emotional life had changed, and I knew it had. The depression never left although I continually prayed, knowing He would one day remove it from my life. Eventually my aunt, mother, 2 children passed away. This blackness continues to follow me. I am always stopped in my tracks as a reminder. It is unrelenting and unstoppable. I still believe. My faith is all I have left; however, I'm so stuck...in the past and don't know how to move to my future. I feel so alone. Life doesn't sit right anymore. I have prayed and prayed. I know good and bad happens to the righteous and unrighteous, and I'm not special. However, I'm asking for your prayers so this shroud of darkness leaves, finally. I have been living with this heartache for almost 30 years, and I don't know how to move on. In Jesus's name. Amen.
