James 5:20
Let him know, that he which converteth the sinner from the error of his way shall save a soul from death, and shall hide a multitude of sins.
This was the word God had impressed in my heart before my life went totally upside down, before me and my children got abandoned.
There are days this thought enters my mind, "why did I let him come back? im still badly hurt, it's like im torturing myself." When I think back of the past, when my husband had left us already, I still have constant communication with him, then accepting him when he came home. Knowing myself who cannot forgive easily and who cannot forget, i ask myself why... it wasn't easy living with him now, its never the same now as it was before... Then God will remind me of that verse. Before he left us, when I found out about the affair, I was trying to help him get back to the Lord, and every time i cry and feel like giving up, I keep on speaking this verse over and over over again, to remind myself of what God wants me to do.
When he left, the same verse was still speaking to me. If I will not receive him, he will keep on living a life of sin. This is the cross that God wants me to carry. To help him no matter what, to keep him away from living a sinful life.
It is hard to be a Christian, to follow God and deny our flesh is not easy. The flesh wants to get even, but God wants us to show mercy, forgiveness... to be meek, to be like Jesus.
Before, my husband was my whole life, but not now anymore, because God is my life. I dont love him as much as before now because I love God more than I love him. It's God first in my life. I make mistakes, commit sin (mostly by being angry inwardly, being bitter, feeling hate... etc), I am not yet perfect, but I know God is working in me, my healing will come, all these pain/hurt will be gone in God's perfect time.
I thank God that He has restored my family, my marriage, there are days where I still cry, when i remember the past, God will remind me of this verse, and of the other one He gave me - 1 Corinthians 13 - about love, especially the part where it says... love does not keep a record of wrongs...
When God warns us or gives us instructions, even if it is a hard thing to do, we have to obey, we must obey, when we do what He wants, it pleases Him. His ways are different from our ways, but his plans for us are bigger and better... Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Yesterday was the first time since we got back together that we went to church, Im praying that this will be weekly with no fuss or whatsoever, just letting the Holy Spirit keep on working in him and me doing my part as his other half.
Let him know, that he which converteth the sinner from the error of his way shall save a soul from death, and shall hide a multitude of sins.
This was the word God had impressed in my heart before my life went totally upside down, before me and my children got abandoned.
There are days this thought enters my mind, "why did I let him come back? im still badly hurt, it's like im torturing myself." When I think back of the past, when my husband had left us already, I still have constant communication with him, then accepting him when he came home. Knowing myself who cannot forgive easily and who cannot forget, i ask myself why... it wasn't easy living with him now, its never the same now as it was before... Then God will remind me of that verse. Before he left us, when I found out about the affair, I was trying to help him get back to the Lord, and every time i cry and feel like giving up, I keep on speaking this verse over and over over again, to remind myself of what God wants me to do.
When he left, the same verse was still speaking to me. If I will not receive him, he will keep on living a life of sin. This is the cross that God wants me to carry. To help him no matter what, to keep him away from living a sinful life.
It is hard to be a Christian, to follow God and deny our flesh is not easy. The flesh wants to get even, but God wants us to show mercy, forgiveness... to be meek, to be like Jesus.
Before, my husband was my whole life, but not now anymore, because God is my life. I dont love him as much as before now because I love God more than I love him. It's God first in my life. I make mistakes, commit sin (mostly by being angry inwardly, being bitter, feeling hate... etc), I am not yet perfect, but I know God is working in me, my healing will come, all these pain/hurt will be gone in God's perfect time.
I thank God that He has restored my family, my marriage, there are days where I still cry, when i remember the past, God will remind me of this verse, and of the other one He gave me - 1 Corinthians 13 - about love, especially the part where it says... love does not keep a record of wrongs...
When God warns us or gives us instructions, even if it is a hard thing to do, we have to obey, we must obey, when we do what He wants, it pleases Him. His ways are different from our ways, but his plans for us are bigger and better... Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Yesterday was the first time since we got back together that we went to church, Im praying that this will be weekly with no fuss or whatsoever, just letting the Holy Spirit keep on working in him and me doing my part as his other half.
