R
rebecca58
Guest
I sometimes wonder why Lord! I tried to be a good wife, mother and sister and good friend
I have been married twice, the first for 20 yrs, it broke my heart for all my dreams to be thrown away
I divorced him, he was a abusive alcoholic, and had a midlife crisis, of wanting his ex-high school love back, I prayed and endured it for as long as I could. I packed my clothes and left it all, missing my home was hard, through having a nervous breakdown ,and losing my dad and baby brother to death, I found the courage to move on, I made it, 10 yrs later my best buddy in the world confessed he was in love with me, we had been platonic friends for years and were co-workers, I tried discouraging this, I wasnt attracted to him as a husband, he was 9 yrs younger and very immature, he begged and I caved in knowing this wasnt a ideal situation, I was just so happy to finally meet someone that didnt drink, and wasnt abusive, we married, i was 39 ,he was 30,, I soon discovered this man really was a boy, i loved him, but he sucked his thumb, didnt accept responsibility, hated intiamcy
and very disfunctional sexually, we lived as roommates, I divorced him 6 years later,I had worked so hard to build my credit up, I wanted a house, security and a husband ,partners,
I learned a-lot about settling, but I have missed his friendship
My prayer is Its been 4 yrs, I, I have lost my job, and am living off my savings, hoping to hang on to my home, I do not go to bars, and try very hard to lean on God. I know he has been there and my faith is strong, I have no parents and my sister just had a horrible stroke, I do have joy helping her and my son brings me happiness
What is my purpose, God I ask you , all I want is my health(HAD HEART ATTACK) 2 yrs ago.
I refuse to go on line to date, I pray God will send someone special into my life soon, a healthy man
someone to share life with, I do a lot alone and Im independant, but I miss companionship and love ,please pray for me
I have been married twice, the first for 20 yrs, it broke my heart for all my dreams to be thrown away
I divorced him, he was a abusive alcoholic, and had a midlife crisis, of wanting his ex-high school love back, I prayed and endured it for as long as I could. I packed my clothes and left it all, missing my home was hard, through having a nervous breakdown ,and losing my dad and baby brother to death, I found the courage to move on, I made it, 10 yrs later my best buddy in the world confessed he was in love with me, we had been platonic friends for years and were co-workers, I tried discouraging this, I wasnt attracted to him as a husband, he was 9 yrs younger and very immature, he begged and I caved in knowing this wasnt a ideal situation, I was just so happy to finally meet someone that didnt drink, and wasnt abusive, we married, i was 39 ,he was 30,, I soon discovered this man really was a boy, i loved him, but he sucked his thumb, didnt accept responsibility, hated intiamcy
and very disfunctional sexually, we lived as roommates, I divorced him 6 years later,I had worked so hard to build my credit up, I wanted a house, security and a husband ,partners,
I learned a-lot about settling, but I have missed his friendship
My prayer is Its been 4 yrs, I, I have lost my job, and am living off my savings, hoping to hang on to my home, I do not go to bars, and try very hard to lean on God. I know he has been there and my faith is strong, I have no parents and my sister just had a horrible stroke, I do have joy helping her and my son brings me happiness
What is my purpose, God I ask you , all I want is my health(HAD HEART ATTACK) 2 yrs ago.
I refuse to go on line to date, I pray God will send someone special into my life soon, a healthy man
someone to share life with, I do a lot alone and Im independant, but I miss companionship and love ,please pray for me
