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janstep
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I pray God will restore my confidence in myself and that he will send me the person he has in store for me. The man that I have loved for three yrs now sudddenly has decided to get married to a girl he has known for a few yrs unbeknowest to me. If I had had false teeth they would have fallen out of my mouth and yes I was in shock for three days but I am fine to a certain degree. I thought he and I were soul mates for sure, but then again when someone else is in the picture it can blurr things up. He is supposedly getting married tomorrow to this "Saint" as she does nothing wrong and even has a perfect figure and perfect lips. She doesn't drink, smoke, cuss, do drugs or have sex, so she said. I on the other had do drink socially, not get drunk. Had sex with him after 7 dates and have known him since 5th grade. Oh and she is 20 yrs younger than him and I am the same age as him...59. I believe they found each other again through Church so I guess it was meant to be, but it still hurt. That knife couldn't have gone any deeper thats for sure. part of me wishes him Happiness and the other side of me wishes it wouldn't happen, but since God is in control and I am a good Christian person WITH FLAWs, I have to wish him happiness even though my heart breaks. So please say a prayer for me that God will send me someone to love that loves me for every wrinkle, krinkle and blemish. janstep
