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I requested for prayers yesterday. Thanks for your prayers.
However, I got a message this morning. Saying that the interview won't be held so soon as the school principal is busy. I am not sure if this is a "No, you are not going to have the interview" or it's a "We'll try to arrange the time and let you know." I think it's the first. It hurts me so much. The offer came without me sending in my application. Then, it just went off...all my hope are gone.
This is the 4th month of 2009, and I have already had 4 failure. 1st was in January, when I failed my LTCL exam for piano. Then a few weeks ago, I got an offer to join a summer camp in US, my parents didn't allow me to join. I also didn't apply for it. It just came to me. Then, a week later, I had failed in my relationship. And now.... I failed to get a job, not even a chance to go for the interview.
Why do God keep testing me? I really cannot cope anymore. I really cannot take it anymore. I don't know if I can still trust in Him. Please help me. The job is very important to me. Why does God wants to make me like a foolish clown, putting up fake smile to pretend that I'm happy always? Why does He wants to give me hope and then take everything away? Does He know that I am so sad, so disappointed, so lost. I don't think I can ever gain my confident again. I am such a failure!!!
However, I got a message this morning. Saying that the interview won't be held so soon as the school principal is busy. I am not sure if this is a "No, you are not going to have the interview" or it's a "We'll try to arrange the time and let you know." I think it's the first. It hurts me so much. The offer came without me sending in my application. Then, it just went off...all my hope are gone.
This is the 4th month of 2009, and I have already had 4 failure. 1st was in January, when I failed my LTCL exam for piano. Then a few weeks ago, I got an offer to join a summer camp in US, my parents didn't allow me to join. I also didn't apply for it. It just came to me. Then, a week later, I had failed in my relationship. And now.... I failed to get a job, not even a chance to go for the interview.
Why do God keep testing me? I really cannot cope anymore. I really cannot take it anymore. I don't know if I can still trust in Him. Please help me. The job is very important to me. Why does God wants to make me like a foolish clown, putting up fake smile to pretend that I'm happy always? Why does He wants to give me hope and then take everything away? Does He know that I am so sad, so disappointed, so lost. I don't think I can ever gain my confident again. I am such a failure!!!