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god should know whats going on. my relationship is ending, but i want to save it, she doesn't. i'm afraid that she is going to another man. i'm also dealing with repressed memories of childhood sexual assault and facing the pain that it has caused. i never knew what i acted the way i did, and it played a large part, if not all, to the ending of my relationship. i need god to help me. i don't want to lose my family, we have two young sons, but i can't stay in the house anymore when her behavior is causing intense hurt on top of the hurt i am working through as the result of the abuse. i'm begging god to talk to me, to tell me if he wants me to have this realtionship, my family, and that he will get me through this abuse crap. i feel like i'm t the lowest point in my life, and i do not have anymore faith or strength. i give up, and i need him to take all this pain away, to give me hope because i have none, i just see my life in ruins. i need him, and i don't hear him or see him or know hes there. i'm just so tired of the pain, of getting hurt all my life so badly by the ones i love, i just need him to fix this, i can't, i'm done, and i don't know what to do or say or anything. please, someone, talk to him for me, please, i can't take it anymore. tonight might be my breaking point, i'm real bad with the abuse crap right now and shes going out to do god knows what with god knows who and just seeing her adds more pain. please, please someone help me, i don't think hes listening to me anymore. please help me, talk to him, please