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Prayer Warrior
I need God's Help! I grew up knowing the love of Christ for me, what is not very common in my country Portugal (almost the entire population is Catholic)! I received Jesus has my personal Saviour and Lord when I was young and have always fought to keep my relationship with him (I prayed and read the bible all single day) and I was quite happy! I felt tremendous peace and joy in my life! Due to some misleading friendships, and due to the appealing appearance of sin i've gradually turned away from God! I stopped praying and reading God's word! This was 2 years ago! I tried many times to return to God but I would fall into sin again. When I realized I was in a vicious cycle of asking for God's mercy and quickly returning to sin! My heart hardened and it is so disconnected that i can't find my path to God! Over the last year I've been suffering from massive panic attacks that are leading me to desperation! I need God but I can't feel him, It seems he is not there! I continue to go to church with my father but it seems my heart, my praise, my joy was lost in the way! I miss God in my life everyday but do not feel I deserve his forgiveness! I feel he doesn't want me back because of what I've done the last two years! Can you pray for me? My heart has hardened so much GOD...