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<FONT=tahoma><SIZE=7>The past few months have been SOO very extremely traumatic for me
and so have the many past few years...as well...
soo much so...that i can not face a day anymore
i dread waking up...the stress is soo bad
and i dread going to sleep...for the nightmare's that i now have...
Only my faith has kept me soo far...yet it has been severely challenged
and i am not doing well at all...though i am trying soo hard...
i am praying for just a few stable and solid christian friendships
that i may not feel soo utterly all alone in life
and that i would have an up--lifting fellowship...again...
as i had to walk away from some very destructive people
who were dragging me down...with their very unGodly Choices for a long time now...
though they professed to know and love and serve The Lord Jesus...
i also ask for A True Housing Miracle
as i still am in just a temporary rental right now
and it is soo unsettling and not stable and it wears me down
more and more every single day....
last of all
i ask for a mind and heart
that is at peace and at rest...and fully present and healthy whole
and very much sane......i pray for good emotional and spiritual and mental health....
and a new focus and a new hope for my future...LET ME SMILE AT MY FUTURE...
STRENGTHEN MY FAITH HOLY SPIRIT
DO NOT LET ME GIVE UP........OR FALL DOWN ANYMORE
HELP ME FATHER GOD
IN JESUS'S NAME
i have hit such a rock bottom
that there is no where to go...but up again...
please pull me up Father in Jesus's Name...
thank-you God soo much....just help me please.....
AMEN.....and now so be it...amen....</SIZE></FONT>
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<QUOTE="###, post: 31809739, member: 700977">
<FONT=tahoma><SIZE=7>The past few months have been SOO very extremely traumatic for me
and so have the many past few years...as well...
soo much so...that i can not face a day anymore
i dread waking up...the stress is soo bad
and i dread going to sleep...for the nightmare's that i now have...
Only my faith has kept me soo far...yet it has been severely challenged
and i am not doing well at all...though i am trying soo hard...
i am praying for just a few stable and solid christian friendships
that i may not feel soo utterly all alone in life
and that i would have an up--lifting fellowship...again...
as i had to walk away from some very destructive people
who were dragging me down...with their very unGodly Choices for a long time now...
though they professed to know and love and serve The Lord Jesus...
i also ask for A True Housing Miracle
as i still am in just a temporary rental right now
and it is soo unsettling and not stable and it wears me down
more and more every single day....
last of all
i ask for a mind and heart
that is at peace and at rest...and fully present and healthy whole
and very much sane......i pray for good emotional and spiritual and mental health....
and a new focus and a new hope for my future...LET ME SMILE AT MY FUTURE...
STRENGTHEN MY FAITH HOLY SPIRIT
DO NOT LET ME GIVE UP........OR FALL DOWN ANYMORE
HELP ME FATHER GOD
IN JESUS'S NAME
i have hit such a rock bottom
that there is no where to go...but up again...
please pull me up Father in Jesus's Name...
thank-you God soo much....just help me please.....
AMEN.....and now so be it...amen....</SIZE></FONT>
</QUOTE>
El Shadai is His name, the God of more than enough, He pick up every piece of us together when everyone rejects us. He carry you the moment you can't walk. All he is for you to cast your burdens unto him and he will gladly carry for you. David said since he was young and has grown old he has never seen the righteous beg for bread. That prayer has practically worked for me. Jesus said he will supply our needs according to His riches in glory. There's really a different between need and want and sometimes we have to follow the will of God. Please always read psalm 91 when you are to sleep and wake up. There is great power in prayer no matter how we say it. Just like the prodigal son, when life become unbearable, maybe it's time to go back to our father and tell him we're sorry and he will accept us just as we are. Just like the computers with manual, the Bible is our manual where the manufacturer told how to live our lives and all that will happen if we fail to follow his instructions. May be it's time to back and read what God says about you, that he loves you unconditionally, you're fearfully and wonderfully made, you are a royal priesthood, a chosen one and he called you by name in your mother's womb. Out of the million sperms you became victorious even in the womb. He is asking you now, is there anything too hard for him? He has already won the battle that even the grave could not contain him. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you in Jesus name amen
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