macelee
Disciple of Prayer
I prayed for 380 days that God will show me His will for me and the business I own.
I have grown to not like the business. I entered the business three years ago out of greed, vanity and pride. I hate what I do. I feel physically sick when I go to work. I have felt that way for over a year. But God was silent for 380 days – well, not completely silent – he did not send me a clear message that I should quit or do something else. Then two weeks ago – loud and clear – get out of the business.
You see, when I entered the business I did not ask God for wisdom if I should even enter it. In fact, I specifically did not ask Him because I was afraid He would say no. Wow! Talk about vanity and pride. How dumb am I?
I discovered very quickly that I had made the mistake of my life. Huge mistake. My health was adversely affected by the stress. I hated work. I felt physically ill when I went to the office.
And thus began the journey of this prodigal son back to our Heavenly Father. Through my mistake of getting into the business God has used it toget my attention and show me His love, grace and forgiveness. After much trouble and stress, I finally gave myself completely toGod. For the first time in my life (four decades) I was seriously seeking the will of God in my life. I desperately wanted His will to become my desires. The vanity, pride and greed – all gone. All I really need is God. He will provide my needs.
God has used this business to grow me spiritually and bring me to a close relationship with Him. Where once I hardly ever prayed (only when I need Him to get me out of a bad situation) and rarely opened His Word – I am now completely and totally dependent on Him. God is my source for everything. God has revealed those areas in my life that need to change - sin that must stop - confession of my sin against others. Whew.
But to leave this business is a huge financial mess. I don't know how to leave with clean financials with all bills paid. I just can't stop with unpaid bills to creditors. I can't stop with customers waiting on orders. Yet I hate this business. I wish I could just lock the door and walk away. But I know I can't do any of that and be obedient to God and be a good witness.
Sigh. I wish I could just quit. I don't know what to pray for. I feel like such a train wreck right now. The situation I am in is self-inflicted. I need to replace the small income from the business with income from another source. I need to take care of my customers and pay off all creditors. I don't know how unless someone buys the business.
Please pray for me. I'll check back in with updates as I believe that God will solve this in a way that glorifies His name.
Thank you to praying for me.
I have grown to not like the business. I entered the business three years ago out of greed, vanity and pride. I hate what I do. I feel physically sick when I go to work. I have felt that way for over a year. But God was silent for 380 days – well, not completely silent – he did not send me a clear message that I should quit or do something else. Then two weeks ago – loud and clear – get out of the business.
You see, when I entered the business I did not ask God for wisdom if I should even enter it. In fact, I specifically did not ask Him because I was afraid He would say no. Wow! Talk about vanity and pride. How dumb am I?
I discovered very quickly that I had made the mistake of my life. Huge mistake. My health was adversely affected by the stress. I hated work. I felt physically ill when I went to the office.
And thus began the journey of this prodigal son back to our Heavenly Father. Through my mistake of getting into the business God has used it toget my attention and show me His love, grace and forgiveness. After much trouble and stress, I finally gave myself completely toGod. For the first time in my life (four decades) I was seriously seeking the will of God in my life. I desperately wanted His will to become my desires. The vanity, pride and greed – all gone. All I really need is God. He will provide my needs.
God has used this business to grow me spiritually and bring me to a close relationship with Him. Where once I hardly ever prayed (only when I need Him to get me out of a bad situation) and rarely opened His Word – I am now completely and totally dependent on Him. God is my source for everything. God has revealed those areas in my life that need to change - sin that must stop - confession of my sin against others. Whew.
But to leave this business is a huge financial mess. I don't know how to leave with clean financials with all bills paid. I just can't stop with unpaid bills to creditors. I can't stop with customers waiting on orders. Yet I hate this business. I wish I could just lock the door and walk away. But I know I can't do any of that and be obedient to God and be a good witness.
Sigh. I wish I could just quit. I don't know what to pray for. I feel like such a train wreck right now. The situation I am in is self-inflicted. I need to replace the small income from the business with income from another source. I need to take care of my customers and pay off all creditors. I don't know how unless someone buys the business.
Please pray for me. I'll check back in with updates as I believe that God will solve this in a way that glorifies His name.
Thank you to praying for me.
