Anonymous
Beloved of All
I have been praying daily for my SO and I, who recently learned I was pregnant and begged me to abort. I refused. He came home yesterday after being gone all day, very very drunk, and told me that while he does not trust me anymore, if I am pregnant he will support me. I think he is scared and freaked out. But I feel God can work in his heart. He was very angry at me. I have not done anything wrong, except knowing that I will love this baby and care for it. He still cannot understand why I will not kill the baby, or abort it. That is why he does not trust me. He feels a sane person would abort. I cannot understand this at all, knowing he is a Christian, how can he want that? He wants me to see his way, while I insist he see this baby as a life, and it is not ok for me to take away a life that God has given and blessed. I think he is confused, and needs God's love which I have felt, and would never let me abort this baby. While I have offered to let him leave, he will not, which is even more confusing, because he is free to go, yet clearly his conscious is driving him crazy. I am free from that burden, knowing God's will is what will truly manage this situation. I feel his hostility and resentment. I just pray that our Father continue to work on his heart, and help him to find peace. I pray that the Father help him with sobriety in body, mind and spirit, and peace. I pray for love to blossom in him and that the Father's best will be done. I know I must pray and be faithful in our Lord. Lord, be with me. Help me to feel your presence, and know I am not alone in this, and can do this. I thank you for your strength and courage, because I need it now more than ever. Help me to continue to trust in you, and rest in your peace. Thank you for being available, and allowing me my fears, and thank you God, for being my rock, and supporting me when I feel I have no one. Please look after us.
