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Thachgam
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I Have been dating for 2yrs after 1year we got engaged once engaged my partner started to demand sexual realasions from me as a condition of compromise in the companionship, around 11/11 it began to grief me & so I started trying to avoid situations of us being alone, or him being at my home & vice versa, once that happen he began to verbally, abuse me & disrespect me & blamed it on me not wanting to have sex with him, as months went buy in feb of 2012 I discovered I was pregnant, at 1st he acted happy but quickly changed when I expressed 2him just because I was pregnant didnt mean I would go back to sexual sin, we both are christian and know that it is wrong however he always uses " God Knows my heart!& accuses me of judging him cause I don't like the guilt i feel as an divorcee having sex & getting pregnant in front of my teenage daughter,he doesnt know I know it but there has been alot of evidence that hes sleeping with some one else & at 4months pregnant he tried to force me to get an abortion, then he keeps trying 2force his will upon me although I just don't have the desire to sin against God anymore, I've prayed over it, he tells his family everyone hes engaged to me but his treatment of me is not one of a man engaged, at 7months he forced himself on me sexually and caused me to bleed, which caused my placenta to drop since then i've been put on bed rest & unable to work, which forces him to try & use it for leverage to keep asking me to preform oral sex on him which i advised i would not, hes very angry hostel and although we do not live together he forces his visit on me ive asked him to meet with the pastor for help dealing with his sexual desires that are out of control but he refuses I have not to long b4 i deliver but now he refuses to get anything i need for the baby because I will not preform oral sex on him since we cant have vaginal sex & even if I could have vaginal sex its something I felt the need to stop because i recieved the gift of the holy spirit and spoke with tongues and i heard the voice that came out of me say I am a holy God, be holy as I am . I love him, and dont desire to raise a child without the father in our life or home, he trys to say that if i withhold sex from him now id do it when married and so hes not sure he wants to marry now, im asking God for wisdom, & am i being self righteous now ? I'm not to sure what to do, i went to consulting at my church and the church mother advised me to get an abortion which i tried but I couldn't go through with it, she told me of a time she had one & how God forgave her? The conviction I feel or felt was greater than her's and I just couldn't do it. now I feel like hes rejecting the child & me although he keeps pursuing me? I'm not sure at all what God would have me to do, within this relationship & am asking for wisdom,
Wisdom, finances and resources for my home while I am unable to work for the next 4months , the right new job, day care for new born that is safe & Godly, Godly women friends who share in my new convictions, and to be placed living and fellowshiping in the right local church. most of all that God would get the glory out of my relationship with my fiancee, and place Godly men in his life to mentor and speak to him also, for us to find a different church home that can mentor us as a couple & family thank you
Wisdom, finances and resources for my home while I am unable to work for the next 4months , the right new job, day care for new born that is safe & Godly, Godly women friends who share in my new convictions, and to be placed living and fellowshiping in the right local church. most of all that God would get the glory out of my relationship with my fiancee, and place Godly men in his life to mentor and speak to him also, for us to find a different church home that can mentor us as a couple & family thank you
