Lust is one of the top three sins...straight from the garden of Eden...lust of the eyes, lust of the flesh and pride of life...all sin falls under these three "leaders" of sin. seems like two out of three come from Lust...you have allowed a Stronghold to come in and rule you and your life...the Power has already been given to you..it's your flesh that's weak...God died on the cross left His Spirit so you can receive it and have Power..and He even gives it while we are in the worst sin of our lives!...all we have to do is accept HIM...live holy and obedient and He will give us the desires of our heart...the most special gift He gives...is freedom of choice...May the Lords love and conviction continue to call you home with Grace and His Mercy leading you to the path of HIS righteousness..may your mind be set on Him. May truth be spoken and may He mold you into the warrior that He intended you to be from the first. May this spirit of shame be lifted and may you see clearly the calling and the need and the urgency that you fill your body with His spirit and walk in the Kingdom of God right here on earth may your countenance shine with the glory that God has filled you and is using you for the glory of HIS kingdom...remember the vision....without a vision people perish...when we take our own roads we find ourselves far from once was....Satan knew what he was doing...he knew the weakness...make yourself strong in Him and take His Strength and claim victory in Jesus name...Life has so much more to offer (that's my opinion, and what makes me sadder is all that filth...is someones daughter or son...their life is a mess, obviously they too need much healing in Jesus name).....talk to someone too...it's an addiction...and the spirit is a strong one...Truth sets you free....