I hate God because he just keeps letting my life be

[Netta]

I hate God because he just keeps letting my life be wrecked
plus he is letting my little niece get tired of going up and down the stairs which shouldn't be happening because she is still young and she is already tired of going up and down the stairs. Like How God is letting it happen to me. i hate going up and down the stairs now i don't even like going all the way upstairs anymore or all the way down just to get something. this is why my life is screwed up because im getting everyone elses problems and they are getting my problems too. i hate having a crappy life. nothing is working. im just telling it like it is. he just lets things happen to me. he does not comfort me and he does not pick me up. He does nothing thats what he does in my life. he does not do what i ask him to do so im just stuck in being nobody and getting no where...he never causes faith in me he just leaves me empty with alot of crap i only have one life to live and i don't need all this crap happening to me wasting my life away doing nothing and being nothing and getting nothing from God
I can't even be the perfect Girl for a guy i like and im just a piece of crap now. im a nobody because of this mental illness. nobody is ever going to want me.

i see their faces when i come near them...they look like they are disgusted by me...by how i look