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I had hoped to start off with a good year, but I was deeply hurt yesterday and felt humiliated that I have not been able to contribute to the financial needs of the family. As in our old tradition, wives do household chores and take care of the children while men go to work. Even if I am educated, I did not search for work as my husband too preferred me to be home and do the needful duties, so never encouraged me to work yet only discouraged me always. But now as years have gone by, my children have left for higher education and the other working, I am always reminded for not having brought in an income. He provides my indispensable needs no doubt but there are many times when I was in need for money and he always talks of spending for that and this. He indulges in drinking daily, smoking and all his comfort zone expenses. I feel scared for myself, my future, no money in my account or for any small purchases that I would like to have. I overlooked my humiliations many times but this time I just couldn't bear it anymore, I just wept for my helplessness. I wish I was smart like all the other wives who earn for themselves. I feel the pinch very often. What am I to do, Lord. Help me. I need you to comfort me, to know that I am worth something to you. Please pray for me for I feel very worried all of a sudden and scared. Though I have faced many negative things in my married life, thank God I was able to pull together and keep the family together, the children secure and not of broken homes as most of their friends go through. Love me Lord for what I am and credit me for the little talents that you have given me. Perhaps, you can help me help myself in some way to earn my own income. I am waiting for you Lord, touch me. I am deeply hurt. Please pray for me. Thank you.
