We hear the deep pain and frustration in your words, and our hearts ache with you. The brokenness you describe in your marriage and the sense of abandonment are heavy burdens to carry. But we must first address some critical truths with love and firmness, for your healing and restoration can only come through alignment with God’s Word.
Your language of "speaking life," "decreeing," and "demanding" into existence reflects a dangerous misunderstanding of spiritual authority. Scripture teaches us that true power and authority come from submission to God, not from our own declarations. Jesus said, "Apart from me, you can do nothing" (John 15:5 WEB). We do not command God or reality, we humbly seek His will and trust in His sovereignty. The blood of Jesus is not a tool for our demands but a gift of grace that cleanses us from sin and reconciles us to God (1 John 1:7 WEB). We must never treat the precious blood of Christ as a formula for personal gain.
The mention of a "stripper show" and the behavior of your spouse(s) raises grave concerns about unrepentant sin in your marriage. The Bible is clear that sexual immorality, including adultery, fornication, and lustful entertainment, defiles the marriage covenant (Hebrews 13:4 WEB). If your spouse(s) have engaged in such sin, this is not merely a matter of neglect but a violation of God’s holy design for marriage. We must rebuke this sin in the name of Jesus and call for repentance, for "no sexually immoral person... has any inheritance in the Kingdom of Christ and God" (Ephesians 5:5 WEB).
Your marriage is not beyond God’s power to restore, but restoration requires repentance, forgiveness, and a return to biblical principles. If your spouse(s) have hardened their hearts, we must pray for their conviction by the Holy Spirit and for your own strength to stand firm in faith. But we must also warn you: if there is unrepentant adultery, Scripture permits, but does not require, divorce (Matthew 19:9 WEB). This is a painful truth, but God’s Word must guide us, not our emotions or desires.
You also express a sense of being "used" and treated like "Satan" by those who should love you. This is a profound wound, and we grieve with you. But we must ask: Have you placed your hope in people rather than in Christ? Even the most godly spouse will fail us at times, but Jesus never will. "Put your hope in Yahweh, for with Yahweh is loving kindness, and with him is abundant redemption" (Psalm 130:7 WEB). Your worth is not defined by how others treat you but by the fact that you are fearfully and wonderfully made in God’s image (Psalm 139:14 WEB).
Now, let us pray for you with hearts broken for your pain but steadfast in God’s truth:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our brother/sister who is hurting deeply. Lord, You see the wounds in their marriage, the sense of abandonment, and the bitterness that has taken root. We ask that You would pour out Your healing balm on their heart and mind. Break the chains of resentment and unforgiveness, and replace them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7 WEB).
Father, we rebuke the spirit of deception that has led them to believe they can "speak" their own reality into existence. Remind them that true power comes from surrender to You, not from their own words. Humble their heart to seek Your will above all else, for "Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path" (Psalm 119:105 WEB).
Lord, we pray for their spouse(s). If there is unrepentant sin, adultery, lust, or any form of immorality, we ask that You would convict them by Your Holy Spirit. Bring them to their knees in repentance, and restore what has been broken, if it is Your will. But if their hearts remain hardened, give our brother/sister the strength to walk in obedience to Your Word, even if that means letting go.
Father, we declare over them that their worth is found in You alone. Remind them that they are Your beloved child, created for a purpose. Help them to release the burden of trying to please others and instead find their joy in pleasing You. "Delight yourself in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart" (Psalm 37:4 WEB).
We pray for their physical health as well, their teeth, gums, and overall well-being. Provide for their needs, both practical and spiritual. Surround them with godly community who will speak truth in love and walk with them through this valley.
Most of all, Lord, we ask that You would draw them closer to Jesus. If they have never truly surrendered their life to Him, we pray that today would be the day. "If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved" (Romans 10:9 WEB). Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, and let them experience the fullness of life that only comes through Christ.
We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus, the only name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12 WEB). Amen.
Now, dear one, we urge you to take these steps:
1. Repent of any bitterness or unforgiveness in your heart. Holding onto these will only poison your soul. "Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tender hearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you" (Ephesians 4:31-32 WEB).
2. Seek godly counsel from a pastor or mature Christian who can walk with you through this. You do not have to navigate this alone. "Where there is no counsel, plans fail; but in a multitude of counselors they are established" (Proverbs 15:22 WEB).
3. Set boundaries if your spouse(s) are unrepentant in sin. This may mean separation or even divorce if there is ongoing adultery. But do not make this decision in haste or anger, seek the Lord’s guidance first.
4. Focus on your relationship with Christ above all else. Your marriage may be broken, but your relationship with God can be restored and strengthened. Spend time in prayer, read His Word, and worship Him, even when it feels hard.
5. Take care of your physical health as an act of stewardship. The mention of your teeth and gums is a reminder that our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20 WEB). Seek medical care if needed, and trust God to provide.
Lastly, remember that God is close to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18 WEB). You are not forgotten or abandoned by Him. Even in this pain, He is working for your good (Romans 8:28 WEB). Keep your eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of your faith (Hebrews 12:2 WEB). He will never leave you nor forsake you.
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.. I GDT PLENTY OF SLEEP NOW WATER INTAKE WITHOUT DEALING WITH JEALOUS HATERS ANYMORE SINCE THERES NOTHING LEFT OF MY GOD MARRIAGE ANYWAYS THEY ALWAYS HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO USE ME OR ACT LIKE SATAN NOW TOWARDS ME GREATLY I DONT HAVE TO CARE ANYMORE INTO EXISTENCE THATS IT THATS ALL WITH THE BLOOD OF JESUS FOREVERMORE GREATLY..
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
