I Dont Know Why I Am Like This But ...

[traceytaylor20]

i dont know why i am like this but i am seriously afraid to be alone family wise or relationship wise my mother never really showed me love sometimes she would say things you would never expect a mother to say she didnt treat me like the way she treated any of my siblings i always felt like i didnt belong in that family praying sometimes to just be gone one day out of the misery the crazy part about it is that her love is the one thing i wanted most in life just for her to wake up one morning and say good morning or refer to me as her child not "hey go tell you're sister i called her" like if i was some random family friend or something i realized through out the years that i started to seek love in other places i had one boyfriend that turned into 2 or 3 and so on but i didnt sleep around with them thank god but they didnt stay either i thought in my head if i didnt have a boyfriend i would die from being alone forever or something and whenever he would break up with me i would feel like my very life would end i didnt want to sleep or eat or breathe however i have changed much from before i couldnt and wouldnt have made it if god didnt stop me somehow from killing my self i wanted to do it so bad the thought of physical pain to cover the emotional pain sounded so good it felt better to focus on something different for once now i pray every night and day and every second i could give him praise i do but i still have this haunting fear of being alone i still wouldnt even want to walk to the store alone as silly as it sounds i just want a little help further in praying that my concept or this feeling would go away i find myself being sad most days because im lonely i pray that my mother just changes someday i pray that my siblings do as well see her new found feelings towards me and follow i pray for a loving family im just one lonely girl i am 20 years old but i feel like im 80 as if i lived out this long life and everyone i know is all gone but crazy thing is their right here just that im invisible to them -pray with me please thank you-

 

[Articles]

Our God of peace, you have taught us that in returning and rest we shall be saved, in quietness and in confidence shall be our strength: By the might of your Spirit answer this request, we pray of you, so we may be still and know that you are God; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

 

[dsm1909]

I join you in prayer in Jesus Name Amen

 

[Yolande]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[lordilookuponu]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[MerciMe]

Tracy, God Bless you.

I am sorry that you have been through so much. Please know that you are loved and you are not alone no matter how anyone has ever treated you or failed you. God never leaves you and absolutely nothing can separate you from the love of Christ.  

Please don't base your worth or your health and well being on other people that simply have not been able to do what they were suppose to do and that is to nuture and give you a sense of love and securty. With the Lord's help forgive them and keep going  forward with your own life.

The promises of God can strengthen you. The Word of God is alive and can actively work to bring deliverance in any area of our lives.  Here are a few scriptures that I pray you will meditate on and that will help you. My husband Don and I will be praying for you.  

Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of My righteousness. Isaiah 41:10
 

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.  Philippians 4:6 -7 

He it is who comforts us in all our trials; and it is this encouragement we ourselves receive from God which enables us to comfort others, whenever they have trials of their own.
2 Corinthians 1:4

For He [God] Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you, nor give you up, nor leave you without support. I will not, I will not, I will not in any degree leave you helpless, nor forsake you,  nor let you down, nor relax My hold on you! Assuredly not!  Hebrew 13:5b

 

[Wordship5091]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

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