I did not bear witness of Christ when I had the opportunity to because I was scared I wouldn’t be good enough. I want another chance to do it. I also had a sour heart against God in his three forms and infinite guidance. I had a bad heart when following his direction. I want to have him in fullness no matter what I have to give up. I want full knowledge of his mystery. And to never doubt him or his three parts ever again. I need someone to guide and teach me and stay with me spiritually. Please. I need my faith in the trinity restored.