Ashoantarance
Disciple of Prayer
I'm truly sorry to hear about what you're going through. It sounds like an incredibly difficult situation. Here is a redacted version of your text, focusing on privacy:
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I'm being attacked by my extremely abusive husband & his family. His dad, his older brother & his brother's wife. I haven't lived with my husband since 2022 because our landlord sold the house without notice. He was in the hospital because he had a heart attack & I took that as my chance to take my youngest & escape. Anyway, some background on the hell that was barely survived. I was beaten, raped every day even when I cried & begged him to stop & would wake up to him raping me, if I asked for help with anything or he paid for or bought anything for me or the kids or paid a bill he said I owed him & that always meant that he was going to force sex on me, he called me names & the kids & made fun of us, told us how we could dress what we could eat what music we were allowed to listen to & what movies & TV we could watch, no friends allowed, I wasn't allowed to look anyone in the face when we were out, I had to have permission to leave the house for any reason & would be given a time limit that he determined was enough time, no contact with my family except my parents & my grandparents on limited basis & time limits & occasionally my brothers, I was not allowed outside our residence, he accused me of everyone including my family & the kids doctors etc, he marked where my tires were & how much gas I had, he cheated constantly & would constantly compare me to his ex-girlfriend, forbid me & our children from attending church, forbid us from going to family funerals, I would have to block my kids with my body to protect them from him, he would deny me medical care when he beat me badly, he told our children that he raped me & all of them were from that, we got yelled at every day & cussed at, my beatings were daily, he would break things & punch holes in walls slam doors & rip doors off hinges when I locked them to get away, he has choked me beat me while I was pregnant, pointed a loaded gun at my head & made our youngest watch as he pulled the trigger & when it jammed he tried again & then got mad & left. He is in the hospital right now because he had some more health issues & him & his family started attacking me again, his family has been trying to force me to sign strange papers & they have been bullying me calling me names & they have hired the only free lawyer in the area where we live & have filed for a Divorce for my husband to for us & filed some kind of motion to try to get my SSI income & I heard his dad talking that they plan to serve me in December sometime. I got a letter in the mail from the lawyers office telling me that they can't represent me in my Divorce because it would be a conflict of interest because my husband had already hired them. They were the only free lawyer in the area where we live that also handles domestic violence Divorce cases. I was informed in that letter that I needed to find another lawyer/attorney to handle my case ... what am I going to do? I can't afford to pay a lawyer & my husband & his family knows it & they did this on purpose to me. I desperately & very urgently need prayers for help that I can find a lawyer that will take my case one that handles Domestic violence Divorces & the victims & getting Justice & could use prayers for my sexual assault case as well because I was so scared I locked myself away like a prisoner in that house in my bedroom only coming out when I had no choice because he attacked me every time he caught me outside my room. So prayers for both my issues would be greatly appreciated. The second one has cost me everything, I'm homeless now & on waiting list housing help because my SSI disability income isn't enough for me to pay rent anywhere & I'm on waiting list for counseling & therapy & other services for help that I need. I've lost all my family except my parents, one son & my nephew, the rest of my family including my youngest that I raised alone have listened to the lies & slandering that have been spread & no one has ever came to me or talked to me to hear the truth. I've been threatened a lot because I won't drop the charges on the rapist or on his wife for destroying my car. I have been trying to figure how I'm going to replace my car. I have found some that I like but don't have the confidence to try to apply to see if I can qualify & I'm scared that with my only source of income being SSI they will turn me down or the payments will be too high for me & make it too hard to pay my other expenses & fill my prescriptions. I'm barely able to function & my husband & his family have added more onto me & I'm even more scared & stressing out & I don't know what to do & everyone just keeps attacking me, I'm already afraid to be anywhere out in public because my rapist & his family have threatened to hurt me because I won't drop the charges & now my husband & his family have increased my anxiety & stress & I can't find a lawyer that will take my case & help me & he has hired the only free one in our area on purpose & he knows I can't afford to pay one, he is trying to keep me from fighting back & exposing him with my evidence & witnesses. Please pray for me & pray that my husband ### & his family don't go unpunished & that a lawyer will take my case my case pro bono & chew all of them up & spit them out for what they have been doing to me & for the years of domestic violence my husband committed & the control, narcissist abuse, marital rape & verbal abuse & choking, him almost taking my life with a gun.
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Please consider reaching out to local support services or hotlines for immediate assistance. They can provide guidance and support tailored to your situation.
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I'm being attacked by my extremely abusive husband & his family. His dad, his older brother & his brother's wife. I haven't lived with my husband since 2022 because our landlord sold the house without notice. He was in the hospital because he had a heart attack & I took that as my chance to take my youngest & escape. Anyway, some background on the hell that was barely survived. I was beaten, raped every day even when I cried & begged him to stop & would wake up to him raping me, if I asked for help with anything or he paid for or bought anything for me or the kids or paid a bill he said I owed him & that always meant that he was going to force sex on me, he called me names & the kids & made fun of us, told us how we could dress what we could eat what music we were allowed to listen to & what movies & TV we could watch, no friends allowed, I wasn't allowed to look anyone in the face when we were out, I had to have permission to leave the house for any reason & would be given a time limit that he determined was enough time, no contact with my family except my parents & my grandparents on limited basis & time limits & occasionally my brothers, I was not allowed outside our residence, he accused me of everyone including my family & the kids doctors etc, he marked where my tires were & how much gas I had, he cheated constantly & would constantly compare me to his ex-girlfriend, forbid me & our children from attending church, forbid us from going to family funerals, I would have to block my kids with my body to protect them from him, he would deny me medical care when he beat me badly, he told our children that he raped me & all of them were from that, we got yelled at every day & cussed at, my beatings were daily, he would break things & punch holes in walls slam doors & rip doors off hinges when I locked them to get away, he has choked me beat me while I was pregnant, pointed a loaded gun at my head & made our youngest watch as he pulled the trigger & when it jammed he tried again & then got mad & left. He is in the hospital right now because he had some more health issues & him & his family started attacking me again, his family has been trying to force me to sign strange papers & they have been bullying me calling me names & they have hired the only free lawyer in the area where we live & have filed for a Divorce for my husband to for us & filed some kind of motion to try to get my SSI income & I heard his dad talking that they plan to serve me in December sometime. I got a letter in the mail from the lawyers office telling me that they can't represent me in my Divorce because it would be a conflict of interest because my husband had already hired them. They were the only free lawyer in the area where we live that also handles domestic violence Divorce cases. I was informed in that letter that I needed to find another lawyer/attorney to handle my case ... what am I going to do? I can't afford to pay a lawyer & my husband & his family knows it & they did this on purpose to me. I desperately & very urgently need prayers for help that I can find a lawyer that will take my case one that handles Domestic violence Divorces & the victims & getting Justice & could use prayers for my sexual assault case as well because I was so scared I locked myself away like a prisoner in that house in my bedroom only coming out when I had no choice because he attacked me every time he caught me outside my room. So prayers for both my issues would be greatly appreciated. The second one has cost me everything, I'm homeless now & on waiting list housing help because my SSI disability income isn't enough for me to pay rent anywhere & I'm on waiting list for counseling & therapy & other services for help that I need. I've lost all my family except my parents, one son & my nephew, the rest of my family including my youngest that I raised alone have listened to the lies & slandering that have been spread & no one has ever came to me or talked to me to hear the truth. I've been threatened a lot because I won't drop the charges on the rapist or on his wife for destroying my car. I have been trying to figure how I'm going to replace my car. I have found some that I like but don't have the confidence to try to apply to see if I can qualify & I'm scared that with my only source of income being SSI they will turn me down or the payments will be too high for me & make it too hard to pay my other expenses & fill my prescriptions. I'm barely able to function & my husband & his family have added more onto me & I'm even more scared & stressing out & I don't know what to do & everyone just keeps attacking me, I'm already afraid to be anywhere out in public because my rapist & his family have threatened to hurt me because I won't drop the charges & now my husband & his family have increased my anxiety & stress & I can't find a lawyer that will take my case & help me & he has hired the only free one in our area on purpose & he knows I can't afford to pay one, he is trying to keep me from fighting back & exposing him with my evidence & witnesses. Please pray for me & pray that my husband ### & his family don't go unpunished & that a lawyer will take my case my case pro bono & chew all of them up & spit them out for what they have been doing to me & for the years of domestic violence my husband committed & the control, narcissist abuse, marital rape & verbal abuse & choking, him almost taking my life with a gun.
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Please consider reaching out to local support services or hotlines for immediate assistance. They can provide guidance and support tailored to your situation.
