Anonymous
Beloved of All
The reason why I don't have faith or believe in God is because I've been dreaming for the last month, even with taking the medication, that I get put back up in Indianapolis or people from there come down here that I don't want. I ask God to please not make me end up around or bring them around me and any of my relations, friends, or family. Aws ###, ###, ###, including staff like ###, ###, and ###, or he also includes weird people, and I just literally dream I was in Indianapolis again before I just woke up at this boring place where this lady named ###, who used to work in the first company I moved to in Indianapolis when I moved there for the first time, called ###. I've been dreaming that God breaks commandments and promises against me like everything he has promised in his word he doesn't do. He said you should not gossip, and he speaks against meddling, but he does those things in dreams. I have dreams if it's not in a day, a year, 10 years, or even 50 to 70 years, God gives people my info that will do me and my relations wrong, and they come around. I also have been dreaming where I don't see, hear, or perceive anything from ###, none of my relations for 10+ years to forever, or they hear today or here today for a second and disappear out of my life forever. I had dreams where relations put their attitudes, tempers, grief, stress, problems, anger, and jealousy against me and each other or just me or one or two or whoever of the others when none of us deserve any of this from God at all. I've been dreaming that God does the extreme complete opposite on me with everything with everything I ask for help with, like ending my nightmares and the terrors of the night. I've been having dreams where you put me somewhere or offer me to go somewhere where I would never wish to be. There was one night where I dreamt we were up by ### and I dreamt that dream multiple times, and after a few times, you were like, "###, yes, you will be coming here going there for a very long time," and ### and people in dreams were talking fake to me. I dreamt about doppelgangers for the first time in a long time, and I still dream that ###, ###, ###, ###, ###, ###, ###, and ### are included, that's why I don't believe, trust, or have faith in God anymore. He's treating me like he's my enemy and going against everything, especially when I need help that no human but he can do, and making his commandments and promises look like lies against and on me by going against me with them in dreams and forcing people that none of my relations or I don't or wouldn't want on or around us. That's why I'm mad and angry with God. He seems to punish me even when I do good deeds; it's like, "ok," and revealed my privacy of things I don't want others or just certain people to know. That's why I'm mad and angry with God. He's not treating me right or good or helping me get better. He's been doing me wrong instead, like when he said I will help in time of lack or in time of need or in family problems or in trouble or whatever. And when he said, "don't worry," that he goes our back so far, that's all a complete fib and lie to my face and in my life, and there are all kinds of promises and stuff he said he made a fib and a lie against me, and oh, I also have dreams when God lets people get away doing me wrong by doing sins in the Bible, and said, "you shall not do see," he shows me he did appreciate me as a believer or a faithful servant or follower or a Christian or trying my hardest to please him. He shows me how ungrateful he was, and I was trying to strive to do the right thing along the side of fighting for my free will, freedom, and rights, and this is how God treats me. Is that how he does all of his people, making them feel forever punished, enslaved, and trapped in so many ways for life and let be force and push around that don't show me he cares or that he's a God of love. I see extreme hate, but let me know what you need if you need anything, but yeah, that's what's going on, and that's why I've been upset a lot lately. Let me know if you need anything (but yeah, it's all this grief, meddling, nightmare, and being pushed around that's been getting me upset), and I feel like God gave up on me completely, first wanting to treat me right and do me good and bless me because that's what it seems like. Love, you don't forget to let me know if you need anything, but yeah, that's what's going on. I said all of that to my family, and the past week, I saw so-called good luck signs: a quarter on heads, two ladybugs, 17 red birds, but turned them into luck of bad news, bad luck, luck of trouble, and problem or whatever he showed me, but you can now say I hate God. He has shown me how much he has and dislikes and doesn't appreciate me and doesn't care, doesn't love, doesn't anything because if he didn't think that way, then he wouldn't let me and my relations be wrong too or just me even by him. He would not for not force things on me. He would gossip and snitch on me. He would let me be put in a no-care giving company. He would let me and let my relations' bodies act like they're giving up so much. But in my eyes, he showed me he's the God of guilt, grief, problems, trouble, evil, and all. He must have had a partnership with the devil all this time to do me this dirty, so I gave up. I don't like, love, care, or believe in anything about him anymore because yeah, pretty much, I do hate God, and he let me end back in the town, city where I used to live before now in a dream in a care-giving company with care-giver see, he does care. I gave up completely on him. To God, deceive and did me wrong first and still gist giving dreams about ending up around people or people coming around me and my relations that I clearly asked God to please not let or force around, even people we would never dare ask for weird people. See, God showed his hate first, so yeah, I do hate God. My disbelief is now at negative 550. God can forget me ever wanting to go to him since he wants to do me wrong like I literally dreamt ### and them and ### and ### appeared around me, of course, and everybody worked together to do me wrong like I have asked to not happen so many times, and I had had like 30+ of these nightmares in so many versions. No, I hadn't forgotten, so no, I'm not putting faith, trust, love to someone or something that's going to do me completely wrong, so yeah, you can definitely say I hate God. God can forget anything about me.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.