We come before you now with hearts heavy for our brother who stands at the edge of despair, crushed under the weight of debt, shame, and exhaustion. First, we lift our voices in gratitude to our Heavenly Father for sending your father to you in that critical moment—this was no coincidence, but the hand of God intervening to remind you that your life has purpose and that He is not done with you yet. You are *precious* in His sight, and though you feel like a failure, His Word declares that you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). Your worth is not measured by your bank account, your mistakes, or even your ability to provide, but by the blood of Jesus Christ, who paid the ultimate price to redeem you.
We must address something with urgency and love: the enemy has whispered lies to you, telling you that death is the only escape. But Scripture is clear—**suicide is not the answer**. It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and it robs God of the opportunity to display His power in your life. The apostle Paul faced despair so deep he despaired even of life itself, yet he testified, *"We were pressed out of measure, beyond our strength, so that we despaired even of life. Yes, we ourselves have had the sentence of death within ourselves, that we should not trust in ourselves, but in God who raises the dead"* (2 Corinthians 1:8-9). Your struggle is real, but God is greater. He specializes in resurrecting what seems dead—finances, hope, and even faith.
You mentioned feeling like you’ve let your wife, your boys, your family, and God down. Let us gently but firmly correct this: **you are not God**, and you were never meant to carry this burden alone. Your role is to trust Him, not to be perfect. Your family needs you *alive*—not as a man who never struggled, but as one who fought the good fight and let God lift him up. Your boys need to see their father turn to Jesus in the storm, not surrender to it. Your wife needs a husband who clings to faith, even when it’s hard. And God? He already knew every mistake you’d make before you were born, and He *still* chose to love you. *"If we are faithless, he remains faithful; for he cannot deny himself"* (2 Timothy 2:13).
Now, let’s speak truth over your finances. Debt is overwhelming, but it is not insurmountable with God. Remember, He fed thousands with a boy’s lunch (John 6:1-14) and turned water into wine (John 2:1-11). He is the God of multiplication. We urge you to take practical steps:
1. **Seek godly counsel**. Talk to your pastor or a trusted, financially wise believer. Proverbs 15:22 says, *"Plans fail for lack of counsel, but with many advisers they succeed."*
2. **Create a budget**. Every dollar must be accounted for. *"The plans of the diligent surely lead to profit"* (Proverbs 21:5).
3. **Contact your creditors**. Many will work with you if you humbly explain your situation.
4. **Trust God for provision**. He owns the cattle on a thousand hills (Psalm 50:10). Ask Him for wisdom and open doors—then *watch* for them.
You said you’ve prayed but feel nothing has happened. We gently ask: are you looking for *feelings*, or are you trusting in His *faithfulness*? Faith is not the absence of doubt; it’s choosing to believe God’s Word over your circumstances. Jesus told the father of a demon-possessed boy, *"All things are possible for him who believes."* The man cried out, *"I believe! Help my unbelief!"* (Mark 9:23-24). That can be your prayer too. God is not offended by your honesty.
Finally, we must address your mention of loneliness and the mental block keeping you from the Bible. Isolation is a tool of the enemy. *"Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him who is alone when he falls, and doesn’t have another to lift him up"* (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10). Reach out to your church. Share your struggle with your wife. Let others pray over you. And as for the Bible—start small. Even one verse a day. Try Psalm 34:18: *"Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."* Or Matthew 11:28: *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest."*
Now, let us pray over you:
*"Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our brother, who is weary, broken, and drowning in a sea of debt and shame. Lord, we thank You that You see him. You know the number of hairs on his head, the weight on his shoulders, and the tears he’s cried in secret. Father, we rebuke the spirit of suicide that has whispered lies to him. We declare that his life is Yours, and Satan has no claim over it. Bind every demonic stronghold of despair, hopelessness, and self-condemnation in the mighty name of Jesus.
Lord, we ask You to supernaturally intervene in his finances. Provide jobs, open doors, and give him wisdom to steward what You give him. Remind him that manna came *daily* for the Israelites—You will supply his *daily* bread. Father, restore his faith. When he feels too tired to read Your Word, let Your Spirit draw him back. Surround him with brothers and sisters in Christ who will lift him up when he can’t stand.
We pray for his marriage and his boys. Give his wife strength and unity in this trial. Let his sons see their father’s faith grow through this storm. Father, forgive him for the guilt he carries. Wash him clean with the blood of Jesus and remind him that Your grace is sufficient. You are not done writing his story.
In the name of Jesus, we command peace over his mind. Let him sleep without torment. Let him wake with hope. Fill him with Your joy, which is his strength (Nehemiah 8:10). And Lord, when he feels like giving up, remind him of Lazarus—how You waited until all human hope was gone to show Your glory. His situation is not hopeless; it is *prime* for Your miracle.
We love you, brother. You are not alone. Keep fighting. Keep praying. And when you can’t, we will pray for you. The God who parted the Red Sea, who shut the lions’ mouths for Daniel, and who rose from the grave is *your* God. He will not abandon you.
In Jesus’ mighty and saving name, Amen."*
Stand firm. This storm will pass, and your testimony will be a beacon of hope for others. We are here with you, and more importantly, **He** is with you. *"Be strong and courageous. Don’t be afraid or dismayed, for Yahweh your God is with you wherever you go"* (Joshua 1:9).
