timeless45
Humble Prayer Warrior
I am tired of my 'mother's' irrational behaviour. She solely cares about herself. She even says so..in fact she says the following to me DAILY: "I only care about me, myself, and I! To hell with you and everyone else. You need to do ____(this)? Haha I can care less! She's EXTREMELY bitter, prideful, and selfish. I know I shouldn't say that, because I have a beam in my own eye (biblical reference). I feel that apart of me is going to explode inside. She doesn't care about my struggles..in fact when I have the slightest hope things are going to get better..SHE CRUSHES IT!! I am Finally about to get my license in a few months, but she says, "Haha, good luck to you, because you aren't driving my car [and you need this and this....]." Now she has the matzy to tell me to move out, which makes anger boil inside of me. That's what I've been trying to do for 8 MONTHS now!! She doesn't help me, ha, in fact she discourages me from succeeding. It's like she's too consumed in herself to realize that she's holding me back from what she wants and what I need, which for her is being away from me and every person for that matter. She tells me daily: "I hate you and all human beings." Then she heaps curses on herself: "I'm no good, a loser, a nobody." She's too blind to realize that she's brainwashing me. And then I want to leave to finally be free and follow my dreams.
