I am struggling to hold on.
Psalm 10:1 Why, O LORD, do you stand far off? Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?
O God, as I come before you today, my heart is weary from waiting. And I wish you didn’t feel so far away, so silent in our time of trouble. I know that you will answer, but LORD, it is so hard to wait when the money gets tighter and tighter, and still we wait. And the only things I can see with my human eyes, with my limited understanding, are the troubles mounting at our door.
O LORD, I need your strength today- to just put one foot in front of the other and keep walking in faith. It is so hard to look at our situation with these human eyes and have a quiet and restful faith, to have a mind kept in steadfast peace. I can only have those things in You. Lord, thank you for giving us your Word and the model of David- a man after your own heart who wrestled and asked hard questions. It gives my heart hope and joy to know I can be honest with you- I can pour out my heart- I can tell you my fears, and when I am hurt by your silence.
Thank you that you love me despite my doubts. I place my heart in your hands again, and I give you this broken spirit and ask you to revive me according to your Word. Strengthen my steps, that I may serve you and honor your everlasting and glorious Name. You are worthy of my praise, today and every day, and forevermore. In Jesus Name, Amen.