FaithIsComing
Beloved of All
I am sorry to bother anyone. I am in desperate need of your prayer for my life. All night I have been in emotional and spiritual pain. I have cried out to God, but he is absent. I have been praying for months daily, but no change. I am at the verge of giving up. I am alone and ashamed. I can see nothing good in the future. While I am a sinner who ask for forgiveness daily, it seems that ### is rewarding my Husband who walked away to prosper and be happy for his actions. Why? Why? I know that the only perfect being who walked this earth was God. But I thought I was a good wife and supporter of my Mom and sisters. Maybe God is saying no, I was not. This battle has been increasing over the last few weeks - I am losing all faith and hope. But I have been struggling knowing that this belief is detrimental to any change in my life. I know it is my fear of God. So I have cried, pleaded, asked for forgiveness.....but nothing. This feeling of worthlessness and shame is overtaking me. I have never felt so alone in my life than now. I am barren, my family doesn't seem to want to speak with me, my marriage is over, and God sees me as double-minded. Please pray for my soul. I want to give up. I need prayer.
