Dear one , recognize that all of those feelings you are having are NOT from the Lord , let me suggest that even though you may not feel like it , put on some worship music and begin to praise and worship the Lord , the bible tells us that He inhabits the praises of His people , I know that that His presence will fill the room and in His presence , things begin to change . There is power in what we speak , command in the name of Jesus for all those bad feelings to leave and in it's place the joy of the Lord to be with you . Blessings