I am sorry that you have found yourself in a position where you hear and believe the lies of Satan, because that's all they are, my dear. The solution is bringing up or coming up with a positive outcome to solve a problem; suicide is not and never will be a solution because it is negative and does not fix the situation. Instead, it passes over the problem from one generation to the next. If money is your problem, then those you leave behind will inherit that money problem plus suffer the loss of a loved one, and through such action, the suicide seed will be planted in the family, which might end up being a generational curse. Satan wants you to believe it's a solution, but it's not; don't be deceived. Try this instead: if you have done all you can and feel helpless, hand it over to God. Write it down or shout it out loud or in silent prayer; let God know you have failed, and now it's up to Him. That way, whether you succeed or not, you can't take credit or blame for it; it will all fall on God. Can God fail? I promise you you won't die; that situation won't kill you. If you hold on to God a little longer, you will see a way out, which will bring glory to God. Rely on God and see if He ever fails; don't put a time-line or procedure on Him, just trust like a child trusts the parent. Don't be tempted to figure out how or when He will send help; just believe He will. Have that crazy or foolish faith. It has worked for me, and I believe it will work for you too. I pray for you in Jesus's name.
