BeutifultoGod
Good and Faithful Servant
I am not for sure if this is a spiritual attack or what but I really need some help. I am in such a dark place it's hard to get out of bed, read the bible, worship, go to church, I am so tired and I feel like giving up. I am tired of feeling sick being hurt, judged, condemned, ignored, and hurt. I never felt this bad. I just pray it gets better. I need a church home too. I have no one to talk to and I feel like no one cares. I am broken and lost. Like I need a home or safe place to go too. I isolated myself because I cannot deal with people staring at me or being irritated at me. My sister even says stuff like calling me a brat or says hurtful words. I worry about our relationship like has she always felt this way? I cannot deal with stuff like this and I care too much what people think about me. I am a difficult person to deal with. I have some many issues and problems. I feel like the Devil has been at me since a little girl and he is trying a whole lot to take me out. It's extremely hard. I have not peace or joy. And I do not know how to receive love or give it unconditionally. Lord Jesus help me please. I see everyones prayers being answers and I feel bad like God is mad at me or something is wrong with me. Like I am evil. I really need to get out of this dark hole. And please God heal me physically, mentally, emotionally, body, soul and spirit. I cannot wait till all the problems on my list become shorter and shorter and I pray God 2017 will be better. I don't know how to make it better. I am struggling Jesus. In Jesus Name Amen
