asilverlizard
Disciple of Prayer
I am in desperate need of help from my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I suffer from addiction, depression, anxiety, and chronic physical pain every day. The pain is a result of a condition called compartment syndrome, which I developed as a result of becoming unconscious after using too much heroin and passing out in a position that caused the circulation to be cut off to my right leg for an extended period of time. I now have numbness and nerve damage to my right leg that causes extreme pain, difficulty walking, and doing normal everyday activities, which has led to overwhelming depression. I know I don't deserve help because this is all a result of my inability to stop using drugs. So much of this could have been avoided had I stopped. I have now become suicidal because the pain and depression are becoming unbearable, but I have two wonderful kids who need me to be strong and there for them. They don't have their mother in their lives and haven't since 2006, so if I were to commit suicide, it would devastate them, and I can't do that to them. I need help; I don't want to be an addict anymore, be depressed, and struggle with this horrible pain anymore or at least as much. I need people to pray for me, please. I need to feel the comfort of having Jesus with me in this difficult time of need, not even so much for me but so I can be there for my children.
