I am in search of guidance and answers and ...

[kgirl99]

I am in search of guidance and answers and trying to find God in the midst of trials. I do truly believe he is with me, I just don't know where. For the past 5 years or so I have been living in survival mode in every way possible. I am a single mom of 3 children and 6 years ago left an abusive relationship in the midst of getting my masters degree. I graduated with my degree in teaching and set out to find a job. Despite years of subbing and having high recommendations I continuously did not secure full time employment. It was a major financial struggle. I worked 2-3 jobs constantly so I could provide. I also was in and out of relationships searching for a good God honoring person that would fit into my family. Not all of my choices were great and those ended. I gave that all to God and eventually met a nice gentleman about a year ago. He is an amazing person, but things definitely have not been easy. When we met he was going through a divorce. They had been separated for some time, but final paper work hadn't finished. We had a great 5 months and then upon returning from a vacation we found out his mother had cancer. This was devastating news as he was extremely close to her. After 3 short months cancer took her well before expected. This as well as feelings of being broken from his divorces sent him into a major tailspin in so many different directions. I guess I could say it was like Tazmanian going in a million different directions all at the same time. He completely lost who he was and sent our relationship on a roller coaster. One minute we were just friends the next we were a couple and so forth. Obviously this has been extremely difficult for me and I have sought God on a consistent basis but am feeling extemely depressed and lost recently. I don't feel any direction or guidance in any which way.

I can't say that I have been perfect in any of this either. There are times I feel stressed out and pushed away because the pain is to much. This is very hurtful...

I'm at a place where I truly don't know what to do. I have a huge heart and I want to continue to be supportive and by his side, but it is also hard when he goes through his phases of anti relationship and anti marriage ever again. His heart is so hurt and broken and we recently talked about how God wants to restore it and repair it. He knows that but struggles to let him in to do it.

I am praying for guidance and restoration. I honestly feel like I don't know where God is sometimes in my life and have struggled big time for the last 5 years. I want redemption and relief. I am absolutely exhausted and worn. I don't want to give up but I don't have anything left. I do know He loves us and wants what is best for us. I am praying for a miracle. I know God is still in the business of doing those. I really need to be lifted to a higher place. I have to be a good role model to my children and my students. I need God's intervention now.

Thank you in advance if any of you shall stand with me in prayer

 

[LouisianaLady]

I pray for this in Jesus' name. Amen.

 

[Sonia0889]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Cheryl "The Earthly Angel"]

Holy God and loving Father, I consciously place my fears, worries, anxieties, and burdens in your hands. I know that I have so little power to change the outcome of these events and I trust that you will work what is pleasing to you, and best for me, out of these situations. Forgive me for my anxious thoughts and for letting my own worry become an idol that robs you of my full trust. Strengthen and empower me to trust you more by the power and presence of your Spirit. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen

 

[9azo]

IT SHOULD BE SAFE TO SAY; YOU ANSWERED YOUR OWN QUESTION! YOU DONT KNOW THAT HE LOVES US IS THE ANSWER! BACK UP AND STAY THERE. IT IS NOT YOUR PLACE TO BE EVERYTHING TO HIM(YOUR NOT MARRIED). THAT IS GODS JOB! IN HIS LIFE AND YOUR. YOU BOTH NEED GODLY CONSEL(SEEK THAT) TAKE IT SEROUS! HE HAS A LOT OF HEALING TO DO. YOU HAVE TO STOP LOOKING FOR THE RIGHT MAN. THE WORD OF GOD TELLS US THAT; WHEN A MAN FINDS A WOMAN HE FINDS A GOOD THING.(KNOW THIS) NOT JUST ANY MAN EITHER. GODLY,SPIRIT FILLED MAN! NOT WITH TALK(AS SO MAN DO) BUT THE WALK THAT IS HOLY WILL BE YOUR SIGN. NOT THE MAN WITH A NEED FOR ATTENTION? THE MAN THAT IS LOOKING TO LOVE A WOMAN AS CHRIST LOVED THE CHURCH AND GAVE HIMSELF FOR IT.(KNOW THIS) DON'T TALK ABOUT IT. THE READING OF GODS WORD DAILY AND MUCH PRAYER WILL PUT YOU ON THE PATH TO THE CHAGE NEEDED HERE, GOD WILL MEET YOU THERE.(WITH A PURE HEART FOR HIM) GOD!! THERE IS A NEED FOR YOU TO SEEK THE KINGDOM OF GOD FIRST! ( I LIE NOT AGAINST THE GOSPEL). GOD BLESS...

 

[seekingmercy]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

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