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Faithful Servant
I am in a difficult situation. I am married 5 1/2 years, known my wife almost 9, first 1 1/2 as a friend. We have had many challenges in life. Last 3ish years we have had a miscarriage, 2 beautiful children, my mum diagnosed with cancer and needed life-altering surgery, my daughter from a previous marriage who I had custody of moved out and then back, my mother-in-law living with us, I went through 3 different jobs and we started a business which failed and lost $80,000, my most recent job had me working 80+ hours per week during summer into early fall. In October I tried to reconnect with my wife (###) as she wasn't wearing her rings anymore and I could feel the gap widening. We had some emails back and forth, she cried a bit, and we were going to fix our marriage. A few weeks later rings came off and the gap started again. Compound her job demanding more, mine being stressful, and the upcoming Christmas season.....I had a lot of stress...I did not handle it well, I'm sure. I tried to go out with her over the Christmas holidays, my plan being to put a concrete plan in place to "fix" us, 30 minutes later she is moving out the next day. I admit I didn't handle that well, my best friend and wife leaving after almost a decade of knowing each other. I tried pleading, begging, sending her marriage solutions. Nothing worked. At this point, she is saying I emotionally and mentally abused her over the last few years. Now she doesn't love me or want to be in a relationship with me. I was a devout Christian a long time ago, and this situation has brought me back. I pray easily 12 times a day. I think I have prayed over 600 times for her return since she left. I started going to her church....I know I am not perfect and I have made more than my fair share of mistakes, mostly letting life live me and affect my family than my family and I living life. I am so sorry for the pain I have caused her. I have spent the last 7 weeks reading the Bible and praying and changing who I am and my priorities. I work less too! I need God to soften her heart, see divorce is not the answer, with God we can heal our marriage and forge a strong family together. I just need her to think maybe or if. People have asked if there's nothing else we can try. She says no. We haven't really tried and 'we' haven't tried God. Please pray for me that she considers this and that we can reunite our family. I miss them so much and my life is empty without them. I don't need to pray for finances or even my health. I know God hates divorce and doesn't want to see that, He prefers happy family units. All I need is God to make His presence known to me, and show me my purpose, and help with the restoration of my marriage. Please God help me.
