Anonymous
Beloved of All
I am desparate, with no hope. I have never had any prayers answered and even when I want to believe I couldnt. I have been hurt so many times that I just am not able to believe that God loves me even if I want to. Every day I pray that I would die sooner. In my disappointment I have renounced Christ and His salvation. I would be happy to sell my soul to Devil if he would only come and take me to hell. I have started to perform rituals to summon demons who would kill me. I have started to cast spells that are supposed to kill victim on myself. All I wish is to die and burn in hell. I am not able to get out of this because God shows His unlovingness every day over and over again.