angel214
Disciple of Prayer
I am asking for prayer for my marriage. I have been married almost 2 years, blended family. We never fought about money. In fact, I am not sure what we really fought about. But, it felt every issue or concern led to a fight. My husband would anger easily. He would yell at me in front of the kids, 3 boys. I would ask him not to, but he would anyway. In turn, I would then get upset.
His lack of intimacy happened right after we got married. We are separated for the second time in a year's time. He has a place of his own with one of our sons. I have a place of my own with 2 of our sons. My husband is not even speaking to me, or communicating with me in any way. I think he may be seeing someone also.
The 2 boys living with me feel I was being abused verbally and felt it was getting worse as time went by.
I love my husband and I am going through such an emotional roller coaster. One minute I am praying for God to heal our marriage. The next minute I am praying God makes changes in me and softens my husband's heart. Then the next minute I am saying to God I accept it is over, just please help me get through this strong and less painful, please God.
I just don't know how to pray, honestly I feel I do not deserve to be treated the way I was treated by him, but then I feel should I have loved him through it and try to help him deal with his anger. I feel so lost. I have done a 21-day period of prayer and fasting and trying to seek God in hopes of getting answers, but I still feel so lost and alone and confused about this.
Please pray for me and my husband. I did make him leave this time in November. So, I know he is angry for me "kicking" him out. Sometimes I feel if God would heal us, then we can make it. But, then I doubt that God will heal us. I believe in God and I am saved but I need help in my unbelief.
His lack of intimacy happened right after we got married. We are separated for the second time in a year's time. He has a place of his own with one of our sons. I have a place of my own with 2 of our sons. My husband is not even speaking to me, or communicating with me in any way. I think he may be seeing someone also.
The 2 boys living with me feel I was being abused verbally and felt it was getting worse as time went by.
I love my husband and I am going through such an emotional roller coaster. One minute I am praying for God to heal our marriage. The next minute I am praying God makes changes in me and softens my husband's heart. Then the next minute I am saying to God I accept it is over, just please help me get through this strong and less painful, please God.
I just don't know how to pray, honestly I feel I do not deserve to be treated the way I was treated by him, but then I feel should I have loved him through it and try to help him deal with his anger. I feel so lost. I have done a 21-day period of prayer and fasting and trying to seek God in hopes of getting answers, but I still feel so lost and alone and confused about this.
Please pray for me and my husband. I did make him leave this time in November. So, I know he is angry for me "kicking" him out. Sometimes I feel if God would heal us, then we can make it. But, then I doubt that God will heal us. I believe in God and I am saved but I need help in my unbelief.
