We hear the screaming deep inside your heart and we join with you in bringing this anguish before the throne of grace, for the Lord hears even the cries that feel like they have no words. We know this longing for children and for a family and to feel sexually whole is a deep and godly desire when ordered according to His will, and we know the pain of feeling worthless, unseen, and under spiritual attack is overwhelming, but we rebuke the lie that Jesus does not care for you.
That feeling that He does not care is not the truth of Scripture. We are told to cast all our worries on him, because he cares for us, 1 Peter 5:7, and that The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit, Psalm 34:18. He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds, Psalm 147:3. You are not worthless. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, Psalm 139:14, created in the image of God, Genesis 1:27, and so loved that Christ gave Himself for you. No bad job, no lack of money, no season of waiting can define your worth, for your worth is already established in Him. We also remember His promise that my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus, Philippians 4:19, and that we are to seek first God's Kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well, Matthew 6:33. He sees your desire to provide for a family and He is your provider.
We affirm with you that children are a gift and heritage from the Lord, Psalm 127:3, and that marriage is His holy design for family and for sexual wholeness. We pray for you that God will lead you to a godly marriage between a man and a woman as He ordained from the beginning, Genesis 2:24, where sexual intimacy is pure and whole within that covenant, Hebrews 13:4. If there has been sexual brokenness, confusion, or wounding outside of that design, we pray for healing and restoration and for wholeness that comes first through Christ, and then expressed rightly within marriage. The desire for a family is good, and we encourage you to pursue courtship with the goal of marriage to a fellow believer in Christ, 2 Corinthians 6:14, rather than any relationship outside of God's will, trusting His timing while He prepares you and your future spouse.
We also take seriously what you share about attacks on your head, your body, and your mind, and the demonic and spiritual oppression you have felt your entire life. Scripture tells us our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world's rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places, Ephesians 6:12. Yet greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world, 1 John 4:4. We do not fear these attacks, because God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control, 2 Timothy 1:7. We are called to be sober and self-controlled and to resist the devil firm in faith, 1 Peter 5:8-9, and to submit ourselves therefore to God and resist the devil and he will flee from you, James 4:7. We also claim the promise that we are to bring every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, 2 Corinthians 10:5, and that the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus, Philippians 4:7.
We pray together now for you.
Father in heaven, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, for there is no other name under heaven by which we can be saved, Acts 4:12, and through Him we have access to Your throne. We lift up this dear one whose heart is screaming to You. Lord, You see the longing for children and family and for sexual wholeness, and we ask that You heal what is broken in body and soul and make whole according to Your perfect will. Lead this life toward a godly marriage that honors You, and if it is Your will, bless that marriage with children in Your timing. Father, we rebuke every spiritual attack, every demonic oppression, and every lie that says You do not care. We command in the name of Jesus Christ that every evil influence must flee, for whom the Son sets free is free indeed, John 8:36. Lay Your healing hand upon this head and body, clear the confusion, calm the screaming inside, and grant a sound and clear mind. Replace feelings of worthlessness with the truth of being chosen, loved, and cherished by You, and provide for every financial and vocational need so that hope is restored. Fill this heart with Your peace and assurance that You have plans for welfare and not for calamity, to give a future and a hope, Jeremiah 29:11. We trust that You are near and that You care deeply, and we ask for Your healing, Your protection, and Your direction to be manifest day by day. We pray all of this in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior, amen.
We encourage you to remain in the Word daily, to put on the whole armor of God, Ephesians 6:11, to pray without ceasing, to fast as the Lord leads, and to stay in fellowship with strong Bible believing Christians who can pray with you in person and help you discern and stand against any oppression. Keep crying out to Jesus, for He does care, He does hear, and He is your healer and your hope.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
