We understand the deep pain you are carrying, and we want you to know that you are not alone in this struggle. Rejection—especially from someone in spiritual authority—can wound the soul in ways that feel overwhelming, and the enemy often uses such moments to drag us into darkness through depression and sin. But take heart, beloved, for the Lord sees your suffering, and He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). Your struggle with lying is not a surprise to Him, nor is it beyond His power to break. In fact, He is already at work in you, for the very fact that this burdens you shows the Holy Spirit is convicting your heart—and that is a sign of His love, not His abandonment.
The Bible tells us that *"no temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure"* (1 Corinthians 10:13). Lying may feel like an uncontrollable habit right now, but it is a stronghold that *can* be torn down through repentance, renewal of the mind, and the power of Christ in you. Remember, Jesus is the Truth (John 14:6), and when we abide in Him, the lies we’ve spoken—or even the lies we’ve believed about ourselves—must bow to His authority. Begin by confessing this sin specifically to the Lord. Ask Him to cleanse you (1 John 1:9) and to fill you with His Spirit, who is the Spirit of truth (John 16:13). Then, *replace* the habit of lying with the discipline of speaking truth—even when it’s hard. This may mean humbling yourself before others, admitting past deceit, and asking for forgiveness where needed. It will not be easy, but freedom is found in obedience, not in hiding.
As for the rejection you’ve faced, we grieve with you. Church leaders, though human and flawed, are called to shepherd with gentleness (1 Peter 5:2–3), and their failure to do so is a serious matter. But hear this: *your worth is not tied to their approval or disapproval*. You are a child of God, adopted into His family through the blood of Jesus (Ephesians 1:5). If this leader’s rejection has left you feeling unworthy or distant from God, that is a lie from the pit of hell. The Lord Himself was despised and rejected by men (Isaiah 53:3), yet He remained faithful. He understands your pain intimately, and He is your ultimate Shepherd (Psalm 23:1). We encourage you to seek a biblical, Christ-centered church where you can be discipled, loved, and held accountable—not in legalism, but in grace. Isolation is the enemy’s playground; community is God’s design for healing.
Depression is a heavy burden, but it is not your identity. The psalmist cried out, *"Why are you in despair, my soul? Why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God!"* (Psalm 42:5). Even when your emotions scream otherwise, *choose* to hope in God. This is not a call to deny your pain but to direct it toward the One who can carry it. Spend time in Scripture daily, even if it’s just a few verses. Let truth combat the lies depression whispers. And if this darkness feels unbearable, please seek godly counsel—whether from a pastor, a mature believer, or a biblical counselor. There is no shame in needing help; wisdom seeks it (Proverbs 11:14).
Lastly, we must address something critical: you mentioned being a Christian for only a few years, but you did not invoke the name of Jesus in your request. Beloved, there is *no* access to the Father except through Jesus Christ (John 14:6), and there is *no* other name by which we are saved (Acts 4:12). If you have not already, we urge you to examine your heart: Do you truly believe that Jesus is the Son of God, that He died for your sins, and that He rose again to give you eternal life? Have you repented of your sins and surrendered your life to Him? If not, we plead with you to do so today. *"If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved"* (Romans 10:9). There is no greater hope, no greater healing, than being found in Christ.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up this precious soul to You, knowing that You see every tear, every wound, and every struggle. Lord, we rebuke the spirit of rejection that has taken root in their heart and command it to flee in the name of Jesus Christ. Replace it with the unshakable truth of their identity in You—they are *chosen*, *loved*, and *redeemed* by the blood of the Lamb. Father, break the stronghold of lying in their life. Convict them deeply of this sin, but also flood them with Your grace to overcome it. Teach them to walk in truth, to speak truth, and to rest in Your truth. Bind the enemy’s lies that fuel their depression, and let Your light expose every darkness. Surround them with Your peace, which surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7), and lead them to a community of believers who will walk alongside them in love and accountability.
Lord, if there is any doubt in their heart about their salvation, we ask that You would draw them irrevocably to Yourself. Open their eyes to see Jesus as He truly is—the Savior, the Healer, the Only Way. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, that they may walk in victory over sin and despair. Restore to them the joy of Your salvation (Psalm 51:12) and make them a testament to Your transforming power. We ask all this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Redeemer. Amen.
Beloved, cling to Jesus. He is your anchor in this storm. Read His Word, speak to Him honestly, and trust that He is working all things for your good (Romans 8:28)—even this pain. You are not defined by your struggles; you are defined by *His* love. Walk forward in repentance, in faith, and in the confidence that He who began a good work in you *will* complete it (Philippians 1:6). We are standing with you in prayer.