We have read your request and we are lifting you up before the Lord together right now, for we hear the deep weariness and pain in your words and we do not take lightly what you are carrying.
You shared that you are suicidally depressed, exhausted, between jobs, facing the possibility of working far from home, with a marriage at breaking point, feeling empty as an empty nester, walking through menopause, over analysing mistakes, and feeling you have no friends and cannot carry on much longer. We want you to know that God sees you fully in this valley, He has not abandoned you, and your life is precious to Him.
The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 34:18. He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3. Jesus invites you personally when He says, Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28. We know that cast all your worries on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7 is true for you right now.
We want to gently speak truth to the lie that you cannot go on or that ending your life would bring relief. Your life is created by God and valued by Him, and suicide is not His will or His plan for you. He says, Don't you be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. Isaiah 41:10. And, For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11. Even when you feel alone and friendless, you are not forgotten. God promises He will not leave you nor forsake you, and He can provide community and comfort even in this lonely season.
We also hear how tired you are from over analysing past mistakes. Please hear that in Christ there is forgiveness and freedom from condemnation. There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus. Romans 8:1. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9. The enemy wants you to live in regret, but God wants you to live in His grace and to know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28. Your menopause, your empty nest, your job transition, these are real and difficult changes, but they do not define your worth or your future. Your identity and purpose remain secure in Him, and He can bring new purpose in this next season.
Your marriage is precious to God. We believe marriage is a lifelong covenant between a man and a woman that God desires to strengthen and restore. We pray for healing where there has been hurt, for softened hearts, for honest and grace filled communication, and for you both to seek Him together. If possible, we encourage you to reach out for godly counsel together, perhaps a pastor or biblical counselor, who can walk with you both.
We notice your request asks for prayer but does not mention the name of Jesus, and we want to lovingly share that it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father and find salvation and true hope. Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. John 14:6. There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved. Acts 4:12. If you have not already, we encourage you to call upon the name of Jesus, confess your need for Him, believe that He died and rose again for your sins, and trust Him as Lord and Savior. He is the source of the peace that surpasses understanding.
Because you mentioned being suicidally depressed, we urge you with great care to reach out right away to someone you trust today, a pastor, a doctor, a counselor, a family member, and if you ever feel unsafe or feel you may act on these thoughts, please go to your nearest emergency department or call your local emergency services or a crisis helpline in your country right away. Please also see your doctor about both the depression and the physical changes of menopause, as both can deeply affect mood and energy and deserve compassionate care. You do not need to carry this alone. In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7.
We are praying together for you now.
Father, in the name of Jesus Christ we lift this dear one to You. You see her weariness, her broken heart, her depression, her loneliness, and the strain on her marriage and work. Lord, we ask You to lift this heavy darkness, to bring Your light and hope into her mind and heart, to give her rest where she is so tired, and strength for each day. We pray You would guard her life, protect her from the lies of the enemy, and surround her with Your presence and love. Heal her heart and bind up her wounds, comfort her in her loneliness and provide godly friendship and community. We ask for Your hand upon her marriage, bring reconciliation, forgiveness, and renewed love, and help them to honor You together. We pray for her interviews next week, that You would open the right door close to home according to Your will and provide for her needs. Forgive her sins and help her to receive Your forgiveness for past mistakes, freeing her from condemnation and over analysis, and give her peace and a renewed sense of purpose as an empty nester and through this physical season. Lead her to caring help, to a doctor, counselor and pastor who can support her, and let her feel Your nearness today. We ask all this in the mighty and saving name of Jesus Christ, our only hope, Amen.
We will continue to pray for you. Please keep reaching out, stay connected to a local church body if you are able, and let someone near you know how deeply you are struggling so they can walk with you. God is not finished with your story, and we ask Him to show you His love and hope day by day.