We hear the deep anguish and exhaustion in what you have shared and we grieve with you over the evil that has been done to you. What you describe is not the will of God for your life. The stalking, harassment, control, manipulation, and the terrible sexual abuse you suffered are wicked and God sees every bit of it. He did not overlook the abuse you suffered as a child and He does not overlook what that cult and that warlock did to you. The Lord hates oppression and violence and He is close to those who are crushed by it. Psalm 34:18 says Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 34:17 says The righteous cry, and Yahweh hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles.
We want to speak clearly about the forced spiritual marriage you described. That is not a marriage in the eyes of God. Biblical marriage is a holy covenant between one man and one woman entered into willingly before God, and anything done behind your back, without your consent, through occult power and manipulation is not binding before the Lord. It is spiritual abuse and witchcraft, which God condemns, and it has no legitimate authority over you. What that man did in raping you for years was not marriage, it was grave sin and violence against you, and you bear no guilt for being a victim of it. The guilt belongs to those who did evil to you. John 8:36 says Therefore if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed. In Jesus Christ that occult tie can be broken, for greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world as 1 John 4:4 says.
We also hear you taking blame upon yourself for disobeying the warning of the Holy Spirit and feeling you deserve unending correction. We gently correct that thought with the truth of Scripture. It is true the Holy Spirit warns us to protect us, and when we disobey we should repent, but God does not punish His children with ten years of torment and demon harassment without relief. When we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness as 1 John 1:9 says. There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus as Romans 8:1 says. His mercies are new every morning and His loving kindness never fails as Lamentations 3:22-23 says. You do not have to live under a sentence of endless suffering to pay for a past mistake. Jesus already paid for it on the cross.
You are right to recognize this as spiritual warfare. Ephesians 6:12 says For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world's rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places. Yet we have been given authority in Jesus to resist. James 4:7 says Be subject therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 2 Corinthians 10:4 says For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God to the throwing down of strongholds. You do not have to live without privacy, without freedom, under constant fear. God desires to give you peace and deliverance. Psalm 91:1-2 says He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of Yahweh, He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust. Isaiah 41:10 says Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. 2 Timothy 1:7 says For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control.
We encourage you to completely separate yourself from that cult and that evil church and to have no further contact with that man or those people. Renounce in the name of Jesus any so called spiritual marriage or occult covenant made over you without your consent, for it was never from God. Ask the Lord to break every chain and to cleanse you and cover you with the blood of Jesus. Put on the whole armor of God daily as Ephesians 6:11 teaches, through prayer, the Word, and abiding in Christ. Seek a safe, Bible believing church where pastors will protect and shepherd you, and seek godly, trauma informed counseling to help you heal from the years of abuse. If you are being stalked or threatened in a physical way, please also seek help from trusted authorities and safe people around you, for God has ordained protection for those who are oppressed.
We are praying together for you now.
Father in heaven, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, for it is only through Him that we have access to Your throne of grace. We lift up this precious one to You who has suffered so much pain from childhood abuse, from rape, from cult control and demonic harassment. Lord, You see every tear and every injustice, and we ask You to be their refuge and fortress. We ask in Jesus name that You break every occult tie, every false spiritual marriage, every curse and chain placed upon them without their consent, and let it be rendered powerless by the blood of Jesus. We resist the devil on their behalf and ask that the enemy would flee. Fill them with Your perfect love that casts out fear, with Your power and self control, and with Your peace that passes understanding. Heal their broken heart and crushed spirit, restore what has been stolen, and give them freedom indeed in Christ. Lead them to safe shepherds and safe community, protect their body, mind and spirit, and let them know they are fully forgiven, fully loved, and not condemned. Show them that You are near, that You are their deliverer, and that no stalking spirit or controlling person has ultimate authority over their life, for Jesus is Lord. We pray for justice, for protection, for restoration of freedom and joy, and for a new season of healing after these long years of suffering. We trust You to do this according to Your will and for Your glory. In Jesus name we pray, amen.