Sadieprettylady
Humble Servant of All
Heavenly Father, if you can get him out, please, it's more important to me that he comes out of there than what I want. I know your ways are not my ways, and thank God for that because I don't care for human ways. I fail everything; why do I fail everything? I don't understand myself at all. Honestly, you're perfect, but I am flawed. Why did you make us flawed? To see me overcome. Get him out now, please. I don't know how to accept love now. I don't love myself because it appears no one else ever did besides you, and you're too good for me. I want love, but I don't know how to accept it, so there must be some reason you put him in my path. I have gone through something I can never get past on this earth. I will keep walking and working out the kinks, but this is a hard love here, and you knew I was so messed up already that I would accept hate over love because I either don't value myself or I need everything I need from you. I can't trust anyone, and ### honestly isn't losing sleep over me. Now that I have been through hell with you, I owe you more than I could even pretend to pay, and I'm still sick. What is wrong with me, Father? I'm damaged goods and no good to anyone really. If I am no good to you, I must