Anonymous
Beloved of All
Recently, I realized my singleness stems from fear. The fear of hurt, the fear of rejection, the fear of not being 'enough'
I have isolated myself the past two years because of my past experiences with love. I dated a narcissist that changed the trajectory of my life. I spent a year in therapy and uncovered that my parents are narcissists, which is why I didn't pick up on the manipulation, lack of emotional availability, and conditional love. I am healed now, and can pin-point these things. However, even with my boundaries and taking it slow, my next relationship was with a covert narcissist. The discard and emotional neglect from these people after choosing to see me as not worthy HURTS. I developed a wall to protect myself, that I thought would go away, but it has only strengthened. I am healed and ready for a healthy, real-love, but I need God to open my heart and let them in. I am asking God for a reciprocal love to find and pursue me. One that loves and communicates in the same way that I do. I pray for a healthy love and a healthy partner. And when God sends them to find me, I pray that my mind and heart welcomes them in.
I have isolated myself the past two years because of my past experiences with love. I dated a narcissist that changed the trajectory of my life. I spent a year in therapy and uncovered that my parents are narcissists, which is why I didn't pick up on the manipulation, lack of emotional availability, and conditional love. I am healed now, and can pin-point these things. However, even with my boundaries and taking it slow, my next relationship was with a covert narcissist. The discard and emotional neglect from these people after choosing to see me as not worthy HURTS. I developed a wall to protect myself, that I thought would go away, but it has only strengthened. I am healed and ready for a healthy, real-love, but I need God to open my heart and let them in. I am asking God for a reciprocal love to find and pursue me. One that loves and communicates in the same way that I do. I pray for a healthy love and a healthy partner. And when God sends them to find me, I pray that my mind and heart welcomes them in.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.