BeABarnabus
Account Closed
Had a very difficult last 24 hours. Husband's girlfriend will be here at 9pm tonight. I deal with this each week. I forgive, each time, doing what I know God wants me to do, but the only reason I still stick around is that he pays the bills, puts a roof over my head and otherwise, he would kick me to the curb? I'm not sure if I should leave with nothing and go to my church for help? I just feel like if I leave, I could be removing the only Godly influence in his life? The Holy Spirit indwells me? I'm not so sure about him? How else could he do this to me? I don't know what else to do, so I'm going to go cry myself to sleep....again. Pls pray that ### his GF is met with a feeling of how wrong what she is doing is and that she stops? I fell lost and alone. Jesus is here, I can feel Him, and I feel blessed to have that "feeling" that He's right here, holding me as I cry? Please say a prayer that I don't get frustrated and say something stupid? I need to show the Lord to Him, and to her?
She has stolen my husband's affections? My children could care less to see or talk to me, so I wonder why I stick around?
Please pray that the Lord will show me His will? I don't know what to do anymore.
Please, pray? I need help here. I have nobody, no one who wants to help, family or friends wise? I guess I'm just lookih for that open door? I've apologized a million times for the things I've done wrong, but not once have I heard him say he forgives me? Now this woman coming in every Friday nite to "entertain him" what am I thinking?
Oh Jesus, please show me the way? Help me find it?
She has stolen my husband's affections? My children could care less to see or talk to me, so I wonder why I stick around?
Please pray that the Lord will show me His will? I don't know what to do anymore.
Please, pray? I need help here. I have nobody, no one who wants to help, family or friends wise? I guess I'm just lookih for that open door? I've apologized a million times for the things I've done wrong, but not once have I heard him say he forgives me? Now this woman coming in every Friday nite to "entertain him" what am I thinking?
Oh Jesus, please show me the way? Help me find it?
