stop feeling and just love....it really is not hard...it is only "feelings" that don't even matter in what GOD has planned for you and your husband...walk in obedience to His word and watch what God does to you and your marriage. God has placed the two of you together because it was His divine plan....now step out in faith and tell your husband you love him very much and want to make it happen...even if he is not sure or in an emotion...see who you are fighting, it is not your husband it is principalities in high places....his mind and heart are wounded like yours...your feelings are not greater or lesser than his...you both need healing so do it together..You do see the man you love or you wouldn't be asking for healing and prayer...so reach out in unconditional love...we all say things in hurts and anger they are words that we give power to and bring them to life by hearing the enemy...HEAR His promises of marriage and stand on them...love is an action word...not a feeling word...it is commitment and your marriage vows you took before GOD are what is Truth...marriage is not easy but when we retreat to our own corners it just does not work out for the good...place your heart in his hands...you have nothing to loose (and I ment your husband but it's good to place your heart in God's hands first..) encourage yourself through all this and fight this demon that has come against you and your husband....no hurts remain, why do you keep them in the forefront of your mind...you even said "past" hurts...leave them their...fix your marriage...a little story I've told on here before...take several books and place one on a table and call it your "original" love for your husband, now place book after book and make a tower and each book represents all kinds of problems in your lives...finances, kids, people, work, bills ect ect ect. Is the love still there? Yup it's at the bottom all covered up, but it's the foundation...build on that and everything else will crumble then your at the source...GOD, your husband and you....be blessed sister and love unconditional