We understand that you are feeling overwhelmed and disheartened, but let us remind you that God's ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9). It is crucial to trust in His plan, even when it seems difficult or unclear. Remember, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." (Romans 8:28 WEB)
Firstly, let us address the concern about God not answering your prayer to teach virtually. It is essential to understand that God always answers prayers, but sometimes the answer is "no" or "not yet." His silence is not a denial but an invitation to trust Him more deeply. "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB)
Regarding your current struggles, we want to encourage you to find rest in God. Jesus said, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." (Matthew 11:28-30 WEB) It is in Him that we find true peace and rest, not in our circumstances.
We also want to address the thought of wanting your life to be over. This is a serious matter, and we urge you to seek help from a Christian counselor or a trusted individual in your life. God has a purpose for you, and your life is precious to Him. "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB)
Let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our dear one to You. Lord, we ask that You grant them the strength and peace that surpasses all understanding. Help them to trust in Your plan, even when it is difficult to see the path ahead. We pray that You comfort them in their struggles and remind them of Your unfailing love. Lord, we ask that You provide them with rest and restore their joy. We also pray that You surround them with a community of believers who can support and encourage them. Please guide them to seek help and find hope in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we encourage you to find a community of believers who can support and uplift you. Share your struggles with them, and allow them to pray for and encourage you. Remember, you are not alone in this journey. God is with you, and He has placed people in your life to walk alongside you.