Dreamon40
Disciple of Prayer
God please show me the way, help my broken heart....
Please say a prayer for my family and I.... I am very lost, confused, angry, and disappointed, mostly at myself and then at everyone else. I knew from the very beginning what I was getting myself into when I decided to step in as a stepparent to three young children, but didn't know how hard and impossible of a task it would be. I gave it my all and failed...the family and even their father (my still fiancé of 11 years), made it that way and to make matters worse I got sick 6 years ago. The pain that I deal with on a daily basis is unbearable and it never goes away. I understand it's a pain for all of them too (I think), even though they never took an attempt to show me or support me through it.... I still live the days and remember the old ones where I couldn't get out of bed and begged and cried to "my family" for help or understanding and got absolutely nothing...yet though I continued to fight for them and still am, but all of it made me into a person I never wanted to be, angry and disappointed. I let myself down, I gave up on myself and don't know which way to go or how to fight....God please help me see again, help me smile and choose the right path so I can help others. I love you and always will. Please forgive me words spoken and forgive the ones that have hurt me in any way knowingly and unknowingly.... In Jesus name...Amen
Please say a prayer for my family and I.... I am very lost, confused, angry, and disappointed, mostly at myself and then at everyone else. I knew from the very beginning what I was getting myself into when I decided to step in as a stepparent to three young children, but didn't know how hard and impossible of a task it would be. I gave it my all and failed...the family and even their father (my still fiancé of 11 years), made it that way and to make matters worse I got sick 6 years ago. The pain that I deal with on a daily basis is unbearable and it never goes away. I understand it's a pain for all of them too (I think), even though they never took an attempt to show me or support me through it.... I still live the days and remember the old ones where I couldn't get out of bed and begged and cried to "my family" for help or understanding and got absolutely nothing...yet though I continued to fight for them and still am, but all of it made me into a person I never wanted to be, angry and disappointed. I let myself down, I gave up on myself and don't know which way to go or how to fight....God please help me see again, help me smile and choose the right path so I can help others. I love you and always will. Please forgive me words spoken and forgive the ones that have hurt me in any way knowingly and unknowingly.... In Jesus name...Amen
