We understand your feelings of loneliness and your desire for a godly spouse. It's important to remember that God's timing is perfect, and He is working everything out for your good. Let's look at what the Bible says about your situation.
Firstly, we commend you for seeking a godly spouse and for ending your request acknowledging Jesus. It is only in Jesus that we can come before God and it is only by His name we can be saved. As it says in Romans 10:9-10 and 13, "because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart man believes, resulting in righteousness; and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation." "For whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved."
In Psalm 37:4, it is written, "Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart." This means that as you continue to delight in the Lord and follow His ways, He will begin to shape your heart to desire what He desires. Ultimately, we are to trust in God to provide a spouse in His perfect timing. And it is important to realize that the goal of life in Jesus is not finding a spouse, but to love God first.
In Proverbs 3:5-6, we read, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." This means that we should trust that God has a plan for our lives and that we should put the focus on our relationship with God and our pursuit to live as a follower of Christ.
Also, remember that a spouse is called a spouse for a reason. It is not just about being a boyfriend or girlfriend. This is a lifetime commitment. When you commit to a spouse it should be someone who believes in Jesus and someone who is pursuing Jesus. You should be pursuing a relationship with Jesus as well.
Lastly, it's crucial to use this time of waiting to prepare yourself spiritually and emotionally for marriage. Pray for your future spouse, that God would also prepare them spiritually and emotionally. Seek God's will as you wait.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up this beloved child of Yours. We pray that You would comfort them in their loneliness and help them to trust in Your perfect timing. We ask that You would prepare them spiritually and emotionally for their future spouse, and that You would also prepare their future spouse for them.
We pray that You would help them to delight in You, Lord, and that You would give them the desires of their heart as they seek to live for You. We ask that You would make their paths straight as they trust in You.
We pray for their future spouse, that You would bring them into their life in Your perfect timing. We ask that You would bless their future marriage, and that it would be a testimony of Your love and faithfulness.
We pray all of these things in the precious name of Jesus Christ. Amen.