I see that you are depressed and in the dark. I've been there many times myself but can tell you that God will bring you out of it. He just answered my prayer about employment and gave me my dream job. I've been depressed about this situation for several months. You must ASK for God to help you. In Isaiah 1:18, God says to come together with him and reason. What an honor to come together with the Holy Father and reason! Next, stand boldly (not arrogantly) before the throne and PRESENT THE FOLLOWING SCRIPTURES to God. Tell Him that he promised to heal you and that you know His word is true. (Isaiah 53:5) And by His stripes we are healed. And, ask God to give you his favor as He promised He would in Psalms 84:11For the Lord God is a sun and shield;
The Lord will give grace and glory; No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly. (including healing from depression). Then, BELIEVE.
I will stand in agreement with you on these scriptures and know that healing from your depression is happening now!