GEEK5TER
Servant of All
GOD, i keep going up and down in emotions. I never have one constant feeling. And i havent been generally happy in over a month now. Every single time the thought of just giving up and letting go of her pops up, its immediately shot down with the feeling that you are telling me NOT TO LET GO. NOT TO GIVE UP ON HER. TO WAIT AND ENDURE. And as you child i will listen. I will not give up. I will not let go of her. You have me holding on to her for a reason. And you alone know that reason. I have never been so heart broken or so alone. GOD, you get me thru each and every single day. You are so GLORIOUS and so loving. You offer me every sympathy in the world. And you just want whats best for me. Well GOD i make a promise to you. I will Endure. I wont ever let go. I have had many signs pointing towards the reconciliation between Ana and i. And i know i am ready. I must accept and be patient as now i believe you are working on her and making her ready. Today i reached out and tagged a picture of her and said "Happy Friday". I didnt receive any response but i sure was hoping for one. And Thats where i made a mistake. I dont need to hope. I need to have FAITH that even if she doesnt respond, she will still reconcile with me soon. I feel her coming back, just from time to time that feeling fades. Her son and i are in agreement that we will be together one day. Hopefully soon. Whenever it is, its in your perfect timing my LORD. Direct me where to go and what to do, because without you i am truly lost. I love you with every fiber of my being GOD and you come first and foremost. And that is wy as your child i come to you, The Father to help. Because i cant do this without you. GOD i ask that you mend my broken heart and soften Anas hardened heart. Place a desire for restoration in her mind. Let her know i am here, i am waiting, and i am ready. Love is meant for the two of us. I dont see it any other way. Please bring all this to fruition LORD. Im anxiously awaiting her arrival and know it will be soon. Please keep me in your favor GOD. I pray for this in the name of the Son, Jesus Christ. Amen
